5-26-16
I know its been a while since ive done my actual bible study. But i believe i needed to step away from the for a bit. That and ive been so busy. Visiting family, my papa having strokes, moving, plans changing time and time again. But its all good. Ive been keeping my focus on God and turning to prayer more often. Let me tell you how much that has really helped me. By now, id be pulling my hair out, curled up in a ball, in the floor. Stress is not my forte and neither is NOT having a concrete plan. Im all about plans and time tables. But me and Jesus are working on that. Its one of my many personal 'trials'. Among many other things, relinquishing my troubles, strengthening my faith, gaining wisdom on when to speak/act and when not to. But this go round, instead of my usual im just goin, 'Lord, I wash my hands of this. You take it. Im not even gunna think or worry about it. You take it and do your thing and ill grab my unicorn helmet' and ill just go about my day. If i feel stressed throughout the day, i just repeat it over and over til i feel better.
James 1: 2-8 goes over faith and asking for wisdom. I feel like thats an ongoing trend for me lol. So lets kinda plunge in there. This one is all me by the way lol. Ive been trying to read past this segment and read the whole chapter but I can't. So im just 'ok God. You have my attention'. Anyhow, i have a horrible squirrel brain sometimes.
So verse 2, 'brothers and sisters, you will have many troubles. But this gives you a reason to be happy'. Ok, well, yea troubles kinda come with just about anything with the devil prowling around. My surprised reaction was to be happy about the troubles. Im just sitting here like 'wait what? Am i supposed to go "yay car repairs with money i don't actually have"?'. At this point it almost suddenly felt like i got smacked in the back of the head so, I kept reading.
Verse 3-4, 'you know that when your faith is tested, you learn to be patient in suffering. If you let that patience work in you, the end result will be good. You will be mature and complete. You will be all God wants you to be'. At this point, my brain was going all 'ding ding ding' and I was like 'oooooh ok. I see now'. Im sure some of you are still like, 'i...dont get it'. Well, lemme lay it out for ya. This is how *i* see it. When we are 'tested', going through troubles, spiritual attacks, etc, we have to buckle down, strap on our helmets, and just pray. We have to be PATIENT, and wait on God to give us the wisom to see what HE wants US to do. When we align ourselves with HIS will, everything falls into place, prayers are answered, he shows us our exit. Our 'end result is good' because of patience and faith. Make more sense now?
Verse 5-6, 'If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind'. Ask and you'll recieve, but to recieve you have to believe. I hate using this analogy but im drawing a blank. Think of it like a child does santa. They ask for things, they believe hes real, hes gunna bring gifts, they believe, wait, and watch eagerly. They anticipate and believe so hard they're gunna get that tea party set, or that remote controlled drone with H.D video feed. We should always keep that child like eagerness and anticipation for God. We should believe like a child does waiting and watching for santa. If you're are all on the fence, God plainly stated you might as well be wave being tossed about the wind. Waves are here and there, theres no control or real set motion. You start to believ, but then if you dont get an immediate answer, you faulter. Hopefully I clarified that well.
Verse 7-8, 'That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Such a person is double-mindedand unstable in all they do'. I'd say 'you cant think one thing and then double standard it',but, obviously we can. And we do. Im guilty of it. Not pleased about it. But this past couple weeks ive been back and fourth. Hashing it out both spiritually and flesh wise. I want to do things that make me happy, but at the same time i wanna go do my thing too. But then i remember what my life was like. So i end up fighting not only myself but I start questioning God. Then i get mad at myself for not being able to understand what he's trying to tell me. Then i turn around in frustration and just huff 'can you just punch me in the face with im suppose to do?! I give up. You Take care of it!' And like that, bam, bam, bam. Things line up perfectly. And im just like 'why couldn't i just do this to start with?!?!' And i hear a little voice going 'i tried to tell you' in the back of my head. I was unstable in my faith. I faultered. When infully submitted to God and just went, im done, have it. All was well in the world. His glory shined as he guided my steps and let everything go how it was suppose to be. He showed me how i was suppose to act, how he wants me to be. He wants everyone to be like that. Just laynit down and go 'GOD, take it and help me'.
Ah! Feels so good to get that off my chest!! Thank you Lord!! Learning how and when to speak lol. Maybe now i can relax and sleep LOL! Night y'all. Hittin the road tomorrow. Pray traveling mercies for me!
I know its been a while since ive done my actual bible study. But i believe i needed to step away from the for a bit. That and ive been so busy. Visiting family, my papa having strokes, moving, plans changing time and time again. But its all good. Ive been keeping my focus on God and turning to prayer more often. Let me tell you how much that has really helped me. By now, id be pulling my hair out, curled up in a ball, in the floor. Stress is not my forte and neither is NOT having a concrete plan. Im all about plans and time tables. But me and Jesus are working on that. Its one of my many personal 'trials'. Among many other things, relinquishing my troubles, strengthening my faith, gaining wisdom on when to speak/act and when not to. But this go round, instead of my usual im just goin, 'Lord, I wash my hands of this. You take it. Im not even gunna think or worry about it. You take it and do your thing and ill grab my unicorn helmet' and ill just go about my day. If i feel stressed throughout the day, i just repeat it over and over til i feel better.
James 1: 2-8 goes over faith and asking for wisdom. I feel like thats an ongoing trend for me lol. So lets kinda plunge in there. This one is all me by the way lol. Ive been trying to read past this segment and read the whole chapter but I can't. So im just 'ok God. You have my attention'. Anyhow, i have a horrible squirrel brain sometimes.
So verse 2, 'brothers and sisters, you will have many troubles. But this gives you a reason to be happy'. Ok, well, yea troubles kinda come with just about anything with the devil prowling around. My surprised reaction was to be happy about the troubles. Im just sitting here like 'wait what? Am i supposed to go "yay car repairs with money i don't actually have"?'. At this point it almost suddenly felt like i got smacked in the back of the head so, I kept reading.
Verse 3-4, 'you know that when your faith is tested, you learn to be patient in suffering. If you let that patience work in you, the end result will be good. You will be mature and complete. You will be all God wants you to be'. At this point, my brain was going all 'ding ding ding' and I was like 'oooooh ok. I see now'. Im sure some of you are still like, 'i...dont get it'. Well, lemme lay it out for ya. This is how *i* see it. When we are 'tested', going through troubles, spiritual attacks, etc, we have to buckle down, strap on our helmets, and just pray. We have to be PATIENT, and wait on God to give us the wisom to see what HE wants US to do. When we align ourselves with HIS will, everything falls into place, prayers are answered, he shows us our exit. Our 'end result is good' because of patience and faith. Make more sense now?
Verse 5-6, 'If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind'. Ask and you'll recieve, but to recieve you have to believe. I hate using this analogy but im drawing a blank. Think of it like a child does santa. They ask for things, they believe hes real, hes gunna bring gifts, they believe, wait, and watch eagerly. They anticipate and believe so hard they're gunna get that tea party set, or that remote controlled drone with H.D video feed. We should always keep that child like eagerness and anticipation for God. We should believe like a child does waiting and watching for santa. If you're are all on the fence, God plainly stated you might as well be wave being tossed about the wind. Waves are here and there, theres no control or real set motion. You start to believ, but then if you dont get an immediate answer, you faulter. Hopefully I clarified that well.
Verse 7-8, 'That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Such a person is double-mindedand unstable in all they do'. I'd say 'you cant think one thing and then double standard it',but, obviously we can. And we do. Im guilty of it. Not pleased about it. But this past couple weeks ive been back and fourth. Hashing it out both spiritually and flesh wise. I want to do things that make me happy, but at the same time i wanna go do my thing too. But then i remember what my life was like. So i end up fighting not only myself but I start questioning God. Then i get mad at myself for not being able to understand what he's trying to tell me. Then i turn around in frustration and just huff 'can you just punch me in the face with im suppose to do?! I give up. You Take care of it!' And like that, bam, bam, bam. Things line up perfectly. And im just like 'why couldn't i just do this to start with?!?!' And i hear a little voice going 'i tried to tell you' in the back of my head. I was unstable in my faith. I faultered. When infully submitted to God and just went, im done, have it. All was well in the world. His glory shined as he guided my steps and let everything go how it was suppose to be. He showed me how i was suppose to act, how he wants me to be. He wants everyone to be like that. Just laynit down and go 'GOD, take it and help me'.
Ah! Feels so good to get that off my chest!! Thank you Lord!! Learning how and when to speak lol. Maybe now i can relax and sleep LOL! Night y'all. Hittin the road tomorrow. Pray traveling mercies for me!
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