Debt,Laziness, and Troublemakes

6-29-16

Hey all! it's been a while! My brain had to sort through stuff, and even though i've been reading, nothing in particular peeked my interest for thought sharing. not that the Bible's a bad read, it's extremely good! There's just days where i'm like, 'oh cool! how interesting' and other days where i'm like, "zomg! i haz to share diz!"(i'm on my 3rd cup of coffee after a month of no coffeez by the by ZING!) so how's bout we get started :)

In the beginning...i'm just kidding.

Nah, but anyways, So i was reading some proverbs this morning. Lot of juicy bit in there. I got to chapter 6, and got stuck on it. So figured it's probably one of those 'have to share it' things. The first part talks about Debt. Debt obviously no one really likes anyway. I seem to always get in it even though i absolutely HATE getting put in a position where i owe anyone(even family members) money. Like i had to borrow a dollar from a friend one time so i could eat lunch. Yea i had a complete fit when i took it. But i'm also, which is a work in progress, and very prideful person when it comes to asking for and admitting i need help. Asking for a $1 was just icing on the cake. Cuz then even though friends help friend, family helps family, you'd figured "oh no big deal. it's what friends and family does. they help take care of each other in times of need". I'm all for helping when i can. But when it comes to my prideful self, i now feel like they have some sort of magical hold over me cuz now i owe them. Speaking of magical hold over me, it actually says that in this small script of debt, v3 to be exact, "You will be under the power of other people, so you must go and free yourself. Beg them to free you from that debt". But i think in this sense, it was more of actually loaning money, large sums specifically, like pulling out loans to buy a house, or a new car, repairs for a car, credit cards, so on. But still, i fret over a little dollar. What's even more sad, when i ask my own husband, who's sole job is to provide for this family, if there's something i want, like more crafting or gardening supplies, i ask to BORROW money most the time, and then i work extra hard around the house to try to 'pay him back'. So pray i get better on that aspect. enough about my problems...or maybe that was the point of me getting stuck on this. Was to fully come full circle to my problems...anyways..debt=bad. debt= loans of any kind, credit cards, medical bills, apparently from what i just read on the interwebs even utilities count as being in debt. which i can see, but i'm not about to give up my electricity or water sooooooo(sorry big guy!)....moving on!

next part spoke of Laziness. It spoke of comparing yourself to ants. Although it says ants dont have a boss, or a ruler(which they have queen ants to take care of, not that they knew that back then), that they worked hard collected what needed to be collected in order to survive the winter. The analogy there would be, As the ants work to survive, so should we. We shouldnt be just sitting on our behinds asking for handouts. I firmly believe this(and it's probably why i hate asking for anything. like in middle school, i wouldnt even ask for a .50 cent pkg of paper from my parents). I hate when i have to ask for handouts. I dislike people who make it a job to get handouts for a living. Because as you just sit there, like a bump on a log, poppin out babies right and left that you can't even afford to have, joe shmoe is working his behind off trying to provide for HIS family, then taking a hefty paycheck cut to pay for you to sit on your behind...sorry...well, not really..but it just really strikes my nerves even thinking about it. Especially, when it gets bad enough to where children suffer because it, even more so, when the carelessness of said person end up going too overboard, and now their whole family is out on the street....anywho..

troublemakers. Trouble makers, are your usual everyday child nowadays it seems. always scheming, coming up with lies to stay out of trouble, getting into trouble on purpose. i was one of those children once upon a time like i'm sure most everyone, just seems to get worse and worse each generation. But, as the saying goes, 'what goes around, comes around'. You'll get caught and slip up eventually. There's always consequences to actions. In school, when you rely on your friends to help you pass a test. You take a placement test in college and find out youre still on a high school level of learning cuz you didnt bother to put forth* the effort in trying to learn in school. you were lazy and took the easy way out. The bullies, who picked on all the nerds, some of them kept their heads high, stayed out of trouble, and are now your boss. Those who got in a lot of fights in school and just couldnt stop with the violence, are now in jail. Some people in violence, ended up loosing complete control, and ended up becoming a murderer or a rapist. Yes some turn over a new leaf, actually try to be better, and it's hard because of the road we chose to travel. Once you go down that road, it's hard sometimes to keep off that path. cuz you done it already, you know what it's like, sometimes how much easier it seems to make things(backsliding). But really, deep down, you know it's a hard road and someone, even yourself, will get hurt somehow in the grand scheme of things. Cuz that's just how it works. You sin and cause trouble, and eventually it all catches up to and just completely destroys your life...

Y'all have a blessed day! i'm gunna go sulk in a corner somewhere and try to fight off the devil who's now nagging in my ear and making me feel insignificant and depressed....or maybe i'm just feeling convicted...or both...i dont even know anymore..see y'all again in a few days :)

A small touch on marriage

6-24-16

Thumbing through 1 Corinthians(7:2-16)came across a small section concerning a married life.nso lets dive into my oh so lovely thought process:)

Marriage, is suppose to be that magical time when all the stars align and you get to start 'going forth and multiplying'! Bible says it IS when this is allowed to happen, i said suppose. Bout 8th grade, I reach womanhood, and freshman year i fell off the wagon..a lot. After womanhood arrived and such, i began getting snappy with the parental units because of well..various things. Teenagers smh..anyhow..moving on!

Once married, you get all the two person parties you want. I had a fun fact lined up but mr Spirit said it wasnt a good idea to post it in this dialog >.> party pooper. Anyways. At v3, 'husband should fulfil his marital duties, and same goes for the wife'. Now by marital duties im 99.99% it means more than just chicka chicka boom boom. Fix things around the house, help each other raise the children you created or adopted, going in the kitchen to make sandwiches. That kinda stuff(i know i have horrible humor lol).

over to the right, back on track to the path of kacies deciphering. we have further down that once you are married, you become one flesh. A dynamic duo, 2 peas in a pod, ok im done. That being said, it means, respectively, that each body belongs to the other. A woman is to yield her body to her husband, and a husband to his wife. This does NOT mean when your spouse says 'negative ghost rider' to you getting some, that you go 'tough' and do it anyway. Thats rape. Rape is bad. Its also lacking self control, and it's showing lack of respect to you spouse. Best bet is to just chill, go pray for a day or two. Or a week if it's that time(unless thats your thing) then join together after. In this way, you gain better self control, and satan cant weasel his grubby fingers in your marriage making you lose your control. At least that was my take.

Down to v8. It speaks of being unmarried and widows. Said it was good to remain unmarried, but if you still get them urges to just go ahead and marry. Cuz its better to marry and the. Do your thing vs letting your urges take control over you. cuz more than likely when you're freebirding it at every nest you find, thats how diseases spread. And thats just nasty. Going on, it also speaks on divorce. God unites a man and woman ONCE. When you marry 'til death do you part' you are one flesh period, dot, even if you split up, God still sees you as one. This is based of a scripture in mark 5:31-32, it reads pretty much, that:

"It was also said, ‘Any man who divorces his wife must give her a written notice of divorce.’[a] 32 But I tell you that any man who divorces his wife, except for the problem of sexual sin, is causing his wife to be guilty of adultery. And whoever marries a divorced woman is guilty of adultery." 

V12-14 speak of a believer and unbeliever being married. How if you came together and are willing to live with each other, you must not divorce. For the unbelieving husband is sanctified by his wife, an the unbelieving wife will be sanctified by her husband. Now, from the sounds of the last couple verses, it says 'should the UNbeliver leave, let it be so. Who are you to know if you can save them or not?'. So in this case, and im not 100% positive, if the UNbeliever leave, the bonding ties are no longer there. I shall conduct more research on that and/or ask a pastor for their insight on it. 

Well this message has been brought to by kacies brain. And i do believe thats all for the day. If i get my answer, ill update this post at a later time. For now my interest seems to turned its head to veiwing/wondering about all of Gods laws. Cuz i know theres the 10 commandments, but i wonder if theres more. Kinda like how our laws have little additives to fill in 'loopholes'. I shall return soon! Have a blessed day <3

Where's God?

6-18-16

I was reading habakkuk today, and it kinda struck a cord. Its only a 3 chapter book, so if you wanna read it and have any other input, feel free to read it, or this post, and just comment below :)

Starts off with Habakkuk complaing and accusing God. Some of the things he accused God of are: not listening, allowing violence, allowing injustice, forcing people to watch it all transpire, pretty much evil triumph over good.

I dont know about you guys. But how i see the world now, is like habakkuk did. And im sure like many other, sometimes we just go, 'God, why is all this happening? Dont you hear us? Are you even there?'. We have explosive(literally) violence, shootings, really bad people getting off scotch-free just because the have money and/or have the right connections. Media doesnt help. Theyll blow something way out of proportion like 'oh look! The bird that had a broken wing is healed and flew off into the sunset! Its so beautiful and spectacular! Why do people hate birds?!' And the. On the flip side, "susie sheep whos been wheel chair bound for 50+years walked today. That is all nothing to see here". Or "one of the senators saved a kitten today! Hes such a wonderful person and a real hero and role model' vs "a fire started late last night burning down multiple homes. Firefighters worked around the clock. Good job. Stuff..and things..'. Anyways......yea. I can hardly watch the news anyways. Set aside from overdramatize news articles about common, everyday happenings to everyone person on the planet, type articles to the horrific violent ones. My heart just feels like it could shatter in a million pieces.  And I just sit and wonder why all this is happening and why cant God just make it all stop.

Well, he is there. And he is listening, he cares, and he's constantly in work. Here and there in the passage God answered habakkuk. Essentially saying, im gunna lit em puff out like the hottest, baddest roster on the block, then im gunna break their necks. My brains a little off but thats my rough translation(lol?). He said to look at other nations, and he points out whats going on and reveals what he plans to do. In the end those people are gunna be scoffed at, looked down on, get a taste of their own medicine, karama, what have you. They might as well be a leaf in the wind. Cuz in the end, when God gets everything lined up just right, as the old sunday school song goes, "im gunna walk to the enemies camp, and take back what he stole from me" type thing.

We have to patience . It sucks, i know. Word of advice, and off topic, never pray for patience. I wouldnt even pray that on my enemies. And ways, back on subject. We have to be patient. Sometimes, standing on rusty nails in anticipation patience. God, much likes texas, likes to go big! Like equivalent of dropping a nuke big(that was probably a horrible metaphor). Lets put it this way. If God kept everything peaceful and serene, and every day was like, 'aww m, you haz stifflez? Here all better!', or 'poor thing. You have a boo-boo. Lemme kiss it make it better', or 'oh, tou lost your homework? Here, have a brand new copy' we'd essentially just go 'woohoo!' And that would be it. We'd go on about out day as if nothing extraordinary happened. Granted, yes, God will work on a small-ish scale, but he mostly keeps out the big guns. He doesnt want 'woohoo'. He wants, 'PRAISE GOD GLORY HALLELUJAH!!' Type thjng.

Here's some examples of a small-ish scale, to some big stuff. Narrowly avoiding a collsion. Getting out of a speeding ticket you couldnt afford anyway. Coming out unscathed from a bad wreck. Recovering from drugs and alcohol,  tumors or cancer miraculously disappearing as if it never happened in the first place. Neighboring bully town who terrorized everyone getting a face full of united surrounding towns to put them back in their place. Very bad people getting the correct punishment. Bad goverment officials or leaders being 'dethroned'. Boston bomber, caught and dealt with.  9/11 terrorist attacks eradicated. Things that are in work, monumental donations being sent to people who are having issues with food and water. New learders taking their places. People standing up for what is right despite consequences. Terrorists being delt with accordingly. People standing up for one another in the face of racism and narrow minded hate speech. People being healed head to toe. The world is slowly becoming a more united front as a whole.

Trust me. God is still very much there. He hears our cries. As i said. Patience. We also need to really open our eyes and see everything going on. Even in the worst situation, God is there working. We have to believe he's there, believe he's listening, believe hes gunna do something, then just wait, watch, and listen. Then, when we witness or hear something, give praise, make a joyful noise. Even if  its something small. 

Still here

6-12-16

Yep still here. Just tryin to figure out a new passage to speak my thoughts about. Been real crazy with mocing and all on my end. So hopefully soon i can actually sit down and do something lol

Submitting to God

6-6-16

Diving in once again in the book of James lol. It's short, but there's just SO much good info in there! Today, we'll be going over chapter 4, verses 1-12. In the comments below, feel free to state your opinions or if there's something you'd like me to go over. I'm always down for learning, conversing, and having a good read :D

So, lets dive right in shall we?

What causes fighting and arguing? Be it with family, friends, strangers...God himself.

• desire to have something you don't currently have
• not having your way
• not receiving the answer you want from God(because you asked with ulterior motives)
• being excessively proud instead of being humble

These are a few and very general answers to that. In verses 6-7 it reads(NIV version), "God opposes the proud, but shows favor to the humble. Submit to God, resist the devil, and he will flee".

Well, what exactly is submitting to God. Submit by definition reads, "accept or yield to a superior force or to the authority or will of another person". You completely just go "i give up God, i'm stepping out of the way, i'm not even gunna care anymore. All this (emotion[s]) i feel right now, what's going on with (object or person[s]), i'm laying it at your feet and walking away. You can handle it in a more reasonable and efficient manner than i can ever think of. So, here you go big guy. i'm washing my hands of it. YOU let ME know if there's anything on my end I need to do".

Spouse giving you issues on your beliefs? submit to God, duck out the way, and let God punch them in the face for you. The best thing you can do you for your spouse, it's to just stand back and pray.

Car acting up and you're already tight on funds? Submit it God. Cast every single worry on him and watch him do his thing. You might all of a sudden feel the need to call and vent to a certain person. Next thing you know, that person is lending you the money. Your taxes might of dropped into your bank account at just the right moment. You can say the fix is to expensive, feeling completely and totally defeated and God might land you a better deal with that same shop or somewhere else. Or, you car and "magically" fix itself and you dont have to worry about it at all.

By no means am I trying to say, "ok God, i submit all my bills and responsibilities on you. here you go!" then not pay bills or go to work. That's not how it works. When Adam and Eve were banished from the garden of Eden, God said we were gunna have to work and earn our keep from now on. We still have to do our part. He's our support system so to speak.

Resist the devil. The devil wants you to worry, to fight, be distracted, break God's laws, even so low as to killing one another. All because he works his way in and flips a few switches in your head, whispering in your ear that just drives you up the wall. Be it jealous of someone elses car, wife, how someone else has more money than you, how they seem to have this picture perfect life and you got stuck with rotten hotdogs, etc. Resist these urges and ways of thinking, submit and pray to God, and the devil will have to leave. If you take 1 step towards God, he'll take 10 steps towards you. Don't get distracted by friends or conformity. That's the low road. And a very rough one at that.

When we conform, love, put faith in worldly things, we're putting the other people and the world before God. When you put something above God, he takes it as a form of enmity. That he's being resented, that we're being hostile, or just down right spiteful! God jealously wants us to be with him. After all, he created us. Why wouldnt he get jealous when someone places something or someone else before him?

"But, arent we suppose to NOT be jealous? Why does God get to?" you say? Well, that all good and true, but here's the thing. What happens when WE get jealous? Usually 9 times out of 10, we act and lash out. "you lookin at my girl?!" *throat chop*(for example). We can get VERY hostile and act so negatively, we can more easily fall into sin. When we can fall into sin, the devil takes even the slightest inch, and runs a 5k marathon with it. God, on the other hand, might sigh a little. Your guardian angel might facepalm him/herself for the upteenth time that day. But God won't lash out. He'll calmly offer you back his hand time and time again. Being ever so patient and merciful. Granting us grace every single time. Eventually he'll be able to reach you and hold out his hand. This is where our free will comes into play. Either we accept his hand, or we essentially spit in face. But, that's a topic for another time in the near future.

Another thing to submit to God, is a judgmental spirit. Verses 11-12 read, "do not slander each other. anyone who speaks against a brother or sister, or judges them, speaks against the law and judges it. When you judge the law, you aren't keeping it, but sitting in judgement on it. There is only one lawgiver and judge, the ONE who is able to save and destroy. But you- who are you to judge your neighbor?"

Neighbor wants to sacrifice to satan? not your place to judge

Ringing up a customer who it's flamboyantly gay? not your place to judge

Found out your bff is a closet raging alcoholic? not your place to judge.

Saw a fellow church member cheating on their spouse? not your place to judge. 

Being judged for being judgmental? that's one of MANY of God's domains.

Am I saying all the above mentioned is ok, or to conform to it? no. i'm not. What i'm saying is we need to submit these same feelings to God, and let HIM deal with that. Our Job is to pray. Ask God for you and whoever to both have open minds and hearts, and ask God what HE wants you to do about it. If you wanna help someone, both you and that other persons heart and mind have to be just right and perfectly lined up with God for it to be effective. Shoot, That one person, might not even be your problem. That person could be for someone else to help. This is why we pray. So we can act according to GOD'S will, and not of the flesh(again another topic for another time). Just leave it to God. He'll tell/show you what you need to do at the correct moment.

The Battle Plan for Prayer: from Basic Training to Targeted Strategies

6-3-16

    Mornin' y'all! another couple quick chapters today! If you haven't already, get this book! After some heavy thinking, and fear of being sued over copyright infringement or something retarded. I've decided to leave last posts couple chapters as the last one of that segment. I'll be finishing up the book myself and give a final review on it later down the road.

    This book, after only a few chapter, I'm already giving it 20 stars out of 5. This book has been beyond amazing and a real eye opener so far. This book has a total of 35 Chapters, and added bonus material in the back that has other awesome info you dont wanna miss out on(i've already peeked ahead lol).

    I'll being hitting the good ol' Bible up more often, and see if i cant find anything that catches my attention. Lately i've been stuck in James. Which is a great book by the way! Heck, maybe i'll just write out my personal notes on the whole bible! JK!! i'll do bits and pieces here and there. My goal is to pray over myself and the bible, open up the table of contents, and scan the books. Whatever book catches my eye, i'll read through til i get stuck. Seems to be bit of a trend for me. I'll read a certain part, then i can't read past it. I assume it's God's way of saying "hey, read it more carefully". I heavily encourage everyone to pray over themselves and their bible and seek guidance on passages for the day.

    In closing, I'll repeat myself. Click the hyperlink provided above. It takes you to Amazon. The book is only $10! GET IT!!!!! If you're a seasoned prayer warrior, or like me and just now really only beginning and dont know where exactly to start, this book is amazing. It would even make an amazing lesson for your youth(like HS freshman) or college classes. Or any age from youth group up. It can be a 35 week course. Shorter, if you wanna 2 chapters at a time or whatever.

see ya laters!! have a blessed day!

Faith vs Doubt; Secret vs Show

6-2-16

Well go over a couple chapters today. They were both relatively short chapters and i skipped yesterday. So here's chapters 16-17!

Faith vs Doubt:
"Let him ask in faith without doubting. For the doubter is like the surging sea, driven and tossed by the wind. That person shouldn't expect to receive anything from the Lord" -James 1:6-7

  First off, God is not unaware, unable, uncaring, OR, unlikely to answer your prayers. The issue is, sometimes, our heart can be right with people and God, but for some reason, every now and then, we'll have doubts. These doubts create barriers. By doubts I mean we might sometimes deny the faithfulness or goodness of God. Sometimes we let those seeds of doubt get whispered in our ear that cause us to not be 100% faithful in God. Sometimes we think our ability in prayer isn't good enough for God to even bother listening to also. When we doubt, then our prayers, more often than not, don't get answered. When we don't get an answered prayer, we doubt even further, and sometimes we end up just not praying at all. We end up creating our own misconceptions about God's ability, love, understandings. We'll even go so far as thinking God doesn't care and doesn't wanna help us anyways. We're gunna go over 4 common misconceptions further.

1: God doesn't know or understand my needs.
   Uh, HELLO!! Yea he does! He knows you better than you know yourself. He alone knows how many hairs are on your head, He knows exactly about what feelings you have. The guy had his own Son sacrificed(albeit willingly on Jesus' part) for the sake of the world for cryin out loud! He made us, then we pretty much spit in His face. God: hey..dont do that. Us: hey! hold me beer! watch this y'all!('merica). So don't even go there!! God is too good, merciful, and loving to just toss us to the side like that.

    When we pray, we're spending our time and focusing on God. Prayer is our way to know, love, and worship God. Learning what HIS will is and learning how to walk that path. Learning and being joyous to gain ground and advance HIS kingdom. Making a joyful noise when we witness HIS power and glory. Let me put it this way. Lets say, you have the power of mind reading! you get to know every thought, want, need, of YOUR child. The child knows you know what's on their mind(s). Wouldn't you still want your child to talk and spend time with you? Even if you already knew everything? To experience each others love for one another and help give your child the wisdom they need?

2: God isn't able to help.
    HOLD THE PHONE! GOD isnt able to help?! the one who CREATED the whole ENTIRE earth and all of it's inhabitants?! Sit down son! God, is "able to go ABOVE and BEYOND all that we ask OR think"(Ephesians 3:20); "If we ask anything according to HIS will, He will hear us"(1 John 5:14); "Jesus looked at them and said, 'This is something that people cannot do. But GOD can do anything'"(Matthew 19:26). Good day to you sir! GOOD DAY!

3: God doesn't care.
   McScuse me?! A lack of immediate action hardly merits the thought that HE doesnt care! You're still breathing right? He didnt just go "screw it!", snapped his fingers and everything he cared to create just disappear like that to just start over right? You have to be PERSISTENT!!!!!!  

4: God isn't likely to do anything anyways.
    NOT WITH THAT KIND OF ATTITUDE HE WONT! How many games have you won with that kind of attitude? when you lost, because of your attitude, how much more worse did you make yourself feel? God is willing to listen, respond, counsel, comfort, encourage, and everything else under the sky for you!  WE are the ones who are weak and unwilling. Not God! Bye Felicia!

   Keep in mind folks, God is NOT a genie. You dont rub some magic lamp, get three wishes, then he washes His hands of you. That's not how God works. Your 'battle plan' for your prayers should be consisting of the following: EXPECT Him to know your heart and what you truly need.BELIEVE that no limitations bind God, that he CAN and WILL do anything. ANTICIPATE that He will respond to you with love, compassion, and mercy. Like a kid in a candy store, you're gunna be expecting to leave with candy; Same thing should apply with prayer, you should be praying and anticipate you're gunna walk away with an answer. ASSUME that He is there and listening, willing to come to YOUR aid and to HELP you. Everyday, you need to be asking the Lord to reveal himself and his plans to you. Ask for guidance, protection, wisdom, scripture to help you with something, ANYTHING, EVERY DAY!

Secret vs Show:
"There are some things that the Lord our God has kept secret. Only HE knows these things. And these teachings are for us and our descendants forever. And we much obeay all the commands in that Law" Deuteronomy 29:29

   If you haven't noticed before, Jesus' main way of praying was always by himself(don't feel bad i didnt either til i read this book). His routine was to wake up early before everyone else, and go have him so Daddy and Me time(paraphrasing Mark 1:35). "Send everyone away in the afternoon and escape to a solitary place", Mark 6:46, or "stay up late", Luke 6:12(again paraphrasing). Essentially, do what you gotta do to get some personal one on one time God. It's not all about being out on a street corner praying out loud for the world to hear while you're damning them to hell. That's being self centered and hypocritical. In Matthew 6:5 it says, "when you pray, don't be like the hypocrites. They love to stand in the synagogues and on the street corners praying loudly. They want people to see them. The truth is, that's all the reward they will get". So, just ignore them and let them be trolls. Dont be or feed the trolls. OUR goal should only be to go after and please GOD.
 
    Don't get me wrong, praying in public is perfectly fine. Leading others in prayer where your only focus is on God and not to gain attention is GOOD. It's when you go 'hey look at me! i'm praying!' that there's a disconnect. It's not about what other people think about us. It's what God thinks about us. God is the only one who can judge us anyways. God absolutely despises pride and hypocrisy.

  Getting alone, and praying to God in secret, is not only fundamental, it's also foundational. Secret prayer puts us in a situation where you can remove ALL distractions and focus your attention all on Him. "therefore, humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you at the proper time, casting all your anxiety on Him, because he loves you" 1 Peter 6:6-7. Matthew 6:6, "The Lord is IN the secret place, sees what you do, and rewards what is done in secret"! If God's in the 'secret place' why not go there too and have a party! I mean, who doesn't wanna be rewarded, have requests met, get some good ol' one on one time? Jesus even commands us to see out God in secret. Shouldn't we listen?

If you're answers prove to show more prayer in public, more than likely you're seeking the approval of MEN not God. Even if you pray in secret; if you brag about it in public, it's no different and now you're just being downright prideful. If it's one on one you're seeking and you dont care about anyone else. you're motives are pure. "as he thinks in his heart, so is he" proverbs 23:7. The secret to your success, comes from your secret place; your failure, comes from failure in your secret place.

That's all for today folks! hope you enjoyed it and have a blessed day!