Why Jesus?

9-21-16

For the longest time, like most, I had wondered why should I believe in a guy who sent his own son to be murdered and lets all sort of other bad things happen. Why when he could so easily just make everything rainbows and unicorns. 'Oh, sweet baby Jesus...Kacie..what are you going on about today?' you ask? well, sit down and lemme tell ya a story!..or two lol.

I had gone and hung out with some new found friends. They explained the 'life cycle', so to speak about salvation. They did so in 3 bubbles that all connected to each other. The first bubble was God. In this bubble was God's perfect plan, with all his creation, rainbows, unicorns, puppies and kitten type things so to speak. Everyone was gunna be happy, have never ending lives, love, all the good things we all wish the world would be. What happened was when God created us, he made us extra special. He gave us the gift of free will. He wanted us to CHOOSE Him. The only real rule back then was not to eat from a specific tree. But do to free will, and the temptation from satan the slime ball, we failed what I considered to be 'the test'. That gave birth the broken, rocky bridge of sin, that leads to bubble number 2, darkness and the suffering of the world. In bubble number 2, we have all the worldly things we all try to do all by ourselves. Sometimes after an extremely hard struggle we succeed, sometimes we fail, sometimes it seems like a never ending battle. Relationships, finances, car issues, lying, drug abuse, etc. Try and try as you might, when it seems like everything is going great, you just get sucked back in again in the same cycle. To break that cycle, There's bubble number 3, Jesus. He came to earth as a man, went through all the trials and tribulations any person would ever go through. He kept his head up, kept his faith, fully relied on God setting the perfect example. Then, later on, He took on all of our sins and buried them with himself on the cross. Rose again, and ascended to heaven to be with God. Jesus became, for lack of better wording, our sympathizer on our behalf so we could still gain access to God and His kingdom, plugging the gap between God and the darkness we created ourselves.

"But why Jesus? Why couldn't he just plug the gap in himself? If we screwed up so bad, why would even care what do?". I asked myself the same thing, and it led me to Hebrews 2:5-18. Those almost exact same questions were asked here. It's our own free will that allows to choose God or not. Over time people kept slowly taking God out of the picture. He had already promised long ago to Noah, that he would never just 'reset' the earth again to make a point of people's sins. Instead, He sent his own Son. Not just as God's son, but as an everyday man, to walk the earth as we do. As a man to fully understand all the temptation, trials, and tribulations we go through, and to set an example and remind us how God wanted us to be originally. Even with all the temptations, knowing death was coming his way, Jesus held fast, kept believing in God the Father. Even with everything going on, he held his temper, unless you really messed up(he plays no games. Especially not with Gods temples), he didn't worry, he was always at peace even among the chaos. With doing that, when Jesus died, he took with him all our guilt and shame, so we still had the chance to change and become sons and daughters of God.

As I like to say, we're not Jesus, we aren't perfect, we will mess up. Sometimes more than we like to admit, and I'm no different than any other tom, dick, or harry. Before I let God in my life, I was always angry, stressed, had more than my fair share of depression issues, and at on point, I would worry myself so much I started having panic attacks about almost anything. After I let God take the reigns in my life, I've been anxiety attack free for almost 4 months, I rarely get depressed if only for maybe a week(and it's been improving more), any worry I had that list is extremely minuscule. I have had prayers answered time and time again, I can't even begin to describe the amount of peace and love I've encountered in such a short time. When I start to feel overwhelmed, now I just take a deep breath, pray for God's help and guidance, and I return back into peace as I watch everything fall perfectly into place reminding me He IS in control and will do anything for His children. Recently, there was a point where I wasn't sure if we were gunna be able to eat and pay all of our bills at the same time. I let it get the best of me. But the day before our bills were due, I took a deep breath and looked back on what God had done for us so far. So I prayed. I woke up the next day fully at peace and found out we got paid a day early. That same day with our grocery budget, I went to the store, and they were having a mega sale. I was able to get almost a whole months worth of groceries and stay slightly UNDER our budget. That extra bit I hadn't used, saved our hides the last 3-4 days before the next pay cycle was coming around. By the skin of our teeth, and I know almost completely loath sandwiches after 3 days straight of them almost, but God took care of us. There were car issues where the mechanics knocked some of the price off just because which made our repair bill affordable, there were a couple other issues where the car just seem to 'magically' fix itself. I've been able to help friends, even strangers. After more carefully reading, I realized the Bible isn't so cut and dry. There are so many layers to dissect and learn from that help with any type of issue you may have to help you stay strong and pull through. And all it took was "Lord, I believe your Son came and died for me, I accept it and I accept you. I need your help. Just show me or tell me what to do and I'll listen". I listened, kept praying, reading, and learning. All you have to do is believe and pray to accept him in your heart and stick to it.

Hello!

sorry for the lack of posts. The past 3 weeks some sort of super virus had swept through my house. We're all feeling insanely better :). I should have a new post up later today or tomorrow morning. As you can imagine i have more decontamination to do and errands that desperately need ran. 

Death of Christ

9-1-16

Yep! It's happening! Not only cuz I was lead to it, but because it wasn't the same story I ever recall hearing. I was lead to read both Matthew and Mark. While similar, there are some slight variations. Different tales, some almost exact, leading up to the death of Christ. But even the story of his death was slightly different. Obviously, people need to go other places. After all, Jesus would send out his followers to other places to help spread the good word and work. I also wanna make mention depending on feelings, IDK bout y'all, but I can get upset to a point where I can miss up to a whole paragraph of words spoken to me, it might have also had a part in the variants. I suppose that this would probably be more along the lines of personal thoughts/wants some q&a time, but honestly, I'm not sure. All I know for a fact is I read  it, wrote it, now I'm sharing with you all.
If you look in the book of Mark, It's the story we've all been told, he was betrayed, was picked for death over Barabbas, beaten to please the crowd, put on the cross and rose again. The only thing I don't recall being mentioned was his trial among the Jewish leaders, they had people lining up to lie about Jesus to find something to kill him for, and how they began the beatings right then and there before sending him to pilate after they found 'evidence' for reason to kill him. They slapped him, punched him, and spit on him after they blindfolded him. saying 'If you're the real Son of God, who hit you' but he just sat there silently.

Matthew, on the other hand, is tells it a little differently. Starting at Matthew 26:57-68, like in Mark, Jesus was brought before the leaders, people told lies. The 'evidence' mentioned earlier were two people (I assume the ones from the temple in John 2:19) told the council ' This man said HE would destroy the temple and rebuild it in 3 days'. Now, in John 2:19, that's not what he said. He said, "destroy the temple and I will rebuild it in 3 days". He didn't say *I* will destroy the temple, also, it goes on there stating he wasn't actually talking about the temple itself, but HIMself, not that they knew that part or cared to understand. But those twisting of words, are part of what 'did him in'. The icing on the cake, so to speak, was when they asked him if he was truly the Son of God. In which, his reply, 'Yes, i tell you, in the future, you will see the Son of Man sitting at the right hand of God. And the Son of Man coming on the clouds of heaven'. Here they took it as an insult to God himself and then proceeded to blindfold and beat him.

In Matthew 27:3-5, unlike mark, this chapter states Judas actually felt like a horrible person(which he should feel that way) and tried to give the money back stating 'I sinned. I handed over to you an innocent man'. The priests of the temple refused it, saying, pretty much, they don't accept 'blood money' and that it was his problem to deal with. Judas threw the  money at them, then left, and hung himself.

Little ways down, we get into the part where the people choose a prisoner to free by order of pilate. Matthew 27: 15-25, Pilate, as we all know, pinned Jesus up against Barabbas. A well know, extremely horrible person. Here's the difference here between this book and Mark. In Matthew it says, Pilate's own wife had a dream and warned pilate not to 'mess with that man' for he did nothing wrong(v.19). But the *priests* were telling everyone in the crowd to pick Barabbas to go free. As we know they did, Pilate asked 'why?' only to be answered with 'kill him on the cross'. Pilate then WASHED his hands, and said 'I will not be guilty of this man's death!' and the crowd replied 'we will take responsibility. You can blame us AND our children".

We know the painful yet joyful events thereafter, but here's something in Matthew that wasn't said in Mark. Matthew 27:62-64, that the priests and the Pharisees ordered guards to stand watch over his tomb for 3 full days. They thought the followers would steal Jesus' body and lay claim that Jesus had risen. My thoughts essentially on this is them pretty much saying, 'ok, well after 3 days, if he's still in there then we were in fact right and would no longer have anything to worry about if they made a mistake or not', despite what had happened and was seen as Jesus gave his last breath. We know of course that he had risen after 3 days and went to see his followers and then ascend to heaven. But, over in Matthew 28:11-15, After Jesus had risen, those guards who were guarding the tomb went told the Pharisees that Jesus had in fact risen as he said he would. The Pharisees PAID these guards to keep their mouth shut and to tell everyone that Jesus' body was just stolen, which it seems even now is still believed.

That's all for today, I'm now being called to 'investigate' baptisms. So expect to hear something soon! Thanks for reading and if you have anything to add, any questions, or if there was something else I may have missed please feel free to drop a comment. I would love to talk with you guys :) have blessed day. 

It's Not Easy

8-17-16

Psalms 43:1-5(ERV)
defend me, God. Argue my case against those who don't know you. Protect me from those evil liars. God, you are my place of safety. Why have you turned me away? Why must I suffer this sadness that my enemies have brought me? Send your light and your truth to guide me, to lead me to you holy mountain, to your home. I want to go to God's altar, to the God who makes me so very happy. God, my God I want to play my harp and sing praises to you! Why am i so sad? Why am i so upset? I tell myself, "wait for God's help! You will again have a chance to praise Him, your God, the one who will save you."

No one said following God was easy. Jesus himself, when he first sent out his disciples(Matthew 10:16+), that it would not be easy. But, it also said not to for God is with you. Some days are easy, some days you may feel like you have been battered either by others or even yourself, causing a feeling of spiritual depression. You ask God to defend you, to keep you safe. He does, sometimes at a certain moment, it seems like he doesn't, but later down the road we do. We feel angry, upset, sometimes abandoned. But God is always with us every step we take and even when we stop to try to catch our breath.

It's hard. Especially if it's a loved one you're having a 'battle' with. Even with strangers, it can be almost as equally challenging. Those who don't know God, or those who say they do but twists God's words or just lie, trying to completely destroy your beliefs and faith. Sometimes you don't have an 'answer' and you're left there feeling defeated. The words they say sting like a fresh wound. You seek God for shelter, to feel safe, to have him help you wipe your tears, comfort you. It hurts and it sucks.

At one point or another, you'll even hurt so much as to wonder if God is there or if he really cares, even though you know he is and he does. Losing friends, loss of a loved one, being shunned by others, being asked 'If God really cares, why doesn't he just stop all these bad things from happening?'. We've heard, seen, even asked about God's character at some point in our lives. Sometimes, for those hard questions, we may not have an adequate answer if one at all. We ask God to defend us, to give us the right words to say, and it seems we get no answer, so we feel as if we were either dismissed or just forgotten.

All we want to do is be in God's presence, happy and safe. Sometimes even we do so, it still hurts to a point where you swear you can hear your own spirit cry out in anguish. Even though you can feel God there, you still feel alone.  You ask why you're so upset, only to be met with silence. You keep 'telling yourself, "wait for God's help! You will again have a chance to praise Him, the one who will save you.'". Sometimes even then, you hear another voice crying out, "why can't I reach them? Am I not good enough? Am I doing something wrong?! Why won't you help me?!" and you feel like you just get buried further.

Eventually, the pain and feelings subside. You look back and you see your answer as you stay in God's presence and pray. Maybe you were putting worldly things before God. Maybe you were being a hypocritical Christian instead of a real one. Maybe you needed another growth spurt in your spiritual life before you could manage the task you wanted to accomplish. Just like we do our own children, God waits for us to stop having our tantrum, to finally be still and quiet enough for Him to actually speak to us and to really listen to what he has to say. At this point, we finally catch our breath and feel God lift us up back on our feet. We praise Him even more and we can feel our spirit joining in with us. You no longer get that abnandoned feeling, you feel closer to God than ever and keep walking with your head high. You keep following God's will and when it's time you'll be given the perfect words to reach others. 

Sower's and Seeds

8-8-16

Today's fun-filled word comes from Mark 4:13-20. I know I've heard this passage once in my 26 years, but apparently, it's a common passage to know or be told. It speaks of farmers sowing seeds, how some fell on the path, some in rocky soil, and some in the soil that the seeds are supposed to actually be anyways. The farmers are like our pastors, and the seeds, everyone else spirit wise. As for the terrain, the path would symbolize the people kept away from or discouraged  from receiving God's word. The soil would symbolize the people who get fired up and all 'yea! good sermon! I'm gonna go help spread the gospel!' then something happens to where they don't among other things. The 'tilled' soil, where the seeds are supposed to be naturally, is the best place for the seeds due to easy growth, being able to flourish properly, and produce good fruit.

It's the 'farmers' job to sow the seeds, much like our pastors who are to 'sow' the word of God into the people. Also, like the farmer, when the seed is sown, they hope and pray the 'seed' takes root and will thrive to where it can produce on its own. After the 'seed' has taken root, it's the 'farmers' job to take care of nurture the plant to the best of his/her ability to promote optimal growth and harvest, but again, both a farmer and pastor can only do so much for their 'seedling' and again hopes and prayers for continued growth. As for the 'seeds' that didn't take root, all that can be done is to try and try again as many times as it takes.

As for the 'seeds' growth, like people, the environment is pretty crucial to the process. Which brings us to terrain 1, the path. The path is always trampled on by others, by animals, seeds are eaten by birds. In spiritual terms, these people are always under attack and even the thought of trying to 'sprout' seems to make everything else worse in their life, or they just don't wanna hear about it at all. In this terrain, it's very difficult, most cases it seems almost impossible, to grow here. Neighbors always strung out, parents drunk or gone from home 99% of the day, you try to pray or you get in a church once and you come home and then next thing you know parents are getting divorced, you're neighbor o.d.'d, taken from your family, it's almost like you're living in hell for some people, and for them, for me at least it seems, it's harder for them to accept anything concerning God.

The next terrain is the rocky soil. Here usually you might grow a plant, but it's mostly just 'weeds'(spiritual trouble you having issues facing but try to hang in there) and 9/10 the weeds will eat away the life force of your plant. But here it's a little easier to flourish than the latter, as long as you keep your weeds in check. But, usually, the people who's 'seeds' are in this terrain(which is probably like 90% of everyone) barely hang in there if at all. These sproutlings are all "yes preacher! go head" then when they get home they're promptly reminded about their bank account, fight over something stupid like a tv show, or who's turn it was to clean what, etc., and the weeds grow and they stop focusing on God. They're more concerned with how to get more money, how to just try to take on the world by themselves that they forget the preachings about how God is always there for you and will always find a way to not only provide, but give you more than you already had. This terrain is also what I consider the twice a year people. Rocky terrain means shallow roots, the only way for anything besides weeds to flourish here is to build strong roots(have a church family) and be diligent in your 'weed pulling'.

The last terrain is like the holy grail of soil(you found your church home). When a 'seed' is placed in the proper environment it grows and flourishes by leaps and bounds. The farmer helps you sort through the 'weeds' of life, helps 'fertilize the soil' with God's word and takes great pride watching his 'crops' grow and 'produce their own fruit(going and ministering to others bringing them to church with them). These people learn to thrive and flourish no matter what scenario is thrown their way, holding their heads high, smiling as often as possible, absorbing God's word, and acting on it.

Most cases, especially after a big move to a new city or even a new country, it's hard sometimes to find good soil again. Some, it's easier for others, some not so much. With that said, I just wanna say no matter the environment, it is always possible, even on a 'path' for plants to grow. Plants can grow in the desert. Grass and other plants can crack through concrete if they're hardy enough. All it takes is a good 'root system'. In a place i use to live, i had rocky soil to garden in in real life. I planted a zucchini plant and that thing wanted to live, it *made* its roots strong and pushed rocks aside to go deeper and anchor in, I was honestly shocked it actually grew, let alone give me anything lol. As long as you have the mindset to stay strong no matter what, keeping your faith, believing God will pull everything together, and have a good system you can fully rely on to help you make strong roots, anyone can flourish anywhere. Keep absorbing, keep growing, keep getting stronger in faith, always believe God has your back.

Temptation and Self-Control

7-26-16

     Let's face it. We all have issues. Especially with temptation and self-control. Yes, some people are better at handling it better than others, but at some point, we all muck up. Shopping sprees, buying the newest video games, rescuing too many strays causing financial strains, bawling your eyes out while trying to convince your spouse to let you work a street corner just to keep all of the said furbabies(I HAVE ISSUES OK?! and no I never actually did it), super sales online or in your favorite store, sexual tensions, drinking after being sober, list can go on about thinks we're tempted with. I just wanted to give some general everyday happenstances and a personal bit of temptation.

     This brings me to topic #2. Self-control. With temptation comes exercising self-control.WAY easier said than done in most cases. Shopping when you just had a little one for example. "Aww! this would be so adorable on my baby! Oh, this too! And that, and this..and oooh look at that! How precious!" and then looking at your bank account. From here you have 3 choices: Put some back so you're funding for bills doesn't get cut into, or debating whether or not you can take a hit on a late payment. OR, depending on the price, asking dear old grandma to get it instead, cuz we all blessed to know the spoiling love of a grandparent lol. Or in my case mostly, to just let a stray keep roaming the streets if it seems healthy and not in actual need of help or not. I've come up with all sorts of excuses to try and bring them home. It's hot, it's cold, they look lonely, they need lovin's, I'll find them a new home, I want a new fur baby to add to my collection cuz 3 isn't enough lol, but it's a baby and I don't see the mama around, "I don't care if it bit me and I had to get a tetanus shot I wanna keep it! It can be our guard cat!" LOL(yes, I'm slightly crazy. I know >.>). Debating on eating that cake even though you're on a diet, taking the day off from your exercise regiment or not. Again, lots of scenarios I could go through.

     Apparently, though, especially when someone loses total control to temptation and lands themselves between a rock and hard place; they like to blame to God. "If God didn't want me to have it, it wouldn't have been offered to me", "God knew I couldn't handle the temptation, but he shoved it in my face anyways! look at what he did to me!" blah blah blah. Yea, sounds stupid, doesn't it? "God could have just made me walk away so it's all his fault!". Even before I started my little venture into my bible studies I thought this thought process was stupid. Aside from being told, albeit jokingly, everything was my fault, I was a very firm believer everyone was responsible for their own actions. That person who blamed others for their own predicament is trying to just justify their action somehow and trying to get handouts to fix the problem they themselves caused. James 1: 13-14 says, 'let no one say when tempted 'I was tempted by God', for God cannot be tempted with evil, nor will he tempt anyone. But each person is tempted when lured and enticed by his own desire.' and then in James 4:17, 'so whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin.'.  When you feel tempted, 'pray that you may not enter into temptation'(luke 22:40) and that God gives you the strength and self-control you need to overcome it. 1 Corinthians 10:13 "no temptation had overtaken you that is common to man. God is faithful, he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with temptation, he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it." is a great verse to remember. Yes, we may be allowed to be tempted. It's what will make us become stronger and learn how to better handle any obstacles that come our way, but He will never give us more than we can handle. Sometimes we get bent so much we *feel* like we're fixing to break, but God know's we can handle it, and sometimes it gets that horrible, because we've been ignoring him, and that's the only way he knows for sure he'll get our attention. Pray and have faith. Yes, unfortunately sometimes the outcome is still grim in some cases, but even in our worst moments, if we believe, endure and have faith, you can still give complete glory to God and do his work, and go out with a bang, touching so many other peoples lives in the process. Having also, self-control to handle the situation to best of our ability with God's help.

     We have to have self-control. I know it's hard, I'm no saint either! Self-control, prayer, and faith God will help us overcome temptation, is how we BEAT temptation. Proverbs 25:28, ' a man without self-control is like a city broken into and left without walls", 2 Timothy 1:7, 'for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control'. Every day, we are tempted somehow. Not by God, but by the devil. "Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. Resist him, know other suffer the same suffering throughout the world. After you suffered a little while, the God of all grace, will himself, restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you", 1 Peter 5:8-10. In the book of Ephesians, chapter 6 starting at verse 10, everyday 'put on the armor of God'. Jesus essentially exiled himself to the desert and kicked the devil like a tin can and every temptation showing his self-control. Yes, yes, we are not Jesus, we can and will mess up from time to time. But because of Jesus going through temptation, he understands our sufferings and mediates to the Father for our forgiveness on our behalf when we ask. Granted if you go 'oops! sorry!' and immediately going back to the same routine and not actually being sorry or trying, he'll pretty much just ignore you til you've truly had enough. But that's another story for another day. Something else that will help is a good support system. So extra 'Jiminy crickets' in a sense. 1 Corinthians 15:33 says 'bad company ruins good morals'. When you have friends constantly leading you down the wrong path, it's time to cut ties. At least for a little bit, unless you have the self-control to overcome their temptations. I have friends of all shades. We very much respect each other boundaries. But when any of us needs help, we're all there for each other be it a simple inquiry on bible verse, a reality check, needing a prayer, a simple 'is this a good idea' inquiry we're all there.

     So yeah, we're all tempted, we all suffer. But, with self-control, God, prayer, faith, anything is possible to overcome. Add in some good friends to help you stay straight, that's icing on the cake. God put's temptations, struggles, people, all sorts of things in your life. Not out of spite, not to make you hurt. To make you grow, become more mature, learn to fully rely on him and remember that " I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"(Philippians 4:13) no matter what wrench the devil throws at you in life.

Stress, Frustration, and Faith

7-22-16

             Good morning my dears! It's been a while. Guess I was in another one of those 'seasons'. What's a season you ask? well, lemme tell ya...It's not fun. This lovely young man, explains it better than I ever could. I seem to cycle through the 'winter' phase frequently as of late. It's extremely stressful and very frustrating. I'm sure it doesn't help that when it starts, I can almost immediately notice it and then, like most women(or it might just be me), start racking my brain thinking I did something wrong. So then I stress out trying to figure it out, I pray, I apologize, I pray some more...and I get no dice. Or at least, it feels that way. I start getting so bent out of shape, that only can I not think straight, I end up closing *myself* off from God. Then I freak about how stupid I was being and the whole slew of other womanly stuff. Maybe it's just me lol. I have no idea. So if anyone else is out there, male or female, and you get like that, please let me know I'm not alone! LOL.

             So what we're going to go over, hence the title and my little rants are stress and frustration and how to handle it. Well, try? It's still a very big work in progress for me which is why I seem to get stuck in 'winter' mode quite often. If anyone knew me or knew a family member that knows me, it was very easy for me to get bent out of shape. Between timetables, having my things in a certain way, my personal space tends to be that of what one would call 'organized chaos', and the rest of my house thanks to the Kon Mari method and my mother, needs to look like it came from a magazine and all sorts of other minuscule things, I would get wound up tighter than a wind-up toy. I believe these are also known as control issues? But I've improved quite a bit I think. I still like my timetables, but it somethings happens that destroys said plan of the day, week, or month, I can now just go '*sigh* ok...' and carry on, adapting to it how I can. Over the course of a few minutes and some dedicating praying, I just go "ok God, So can't do this right now. it's slightly irritating, but I'm done having my little tantrum, here's my deep breath, you pick the right time. I'm not going to dwell on it anymore, not going to fret or fuss. You take it, I wash my hands of this" and I just go on my merry way. I try to do this in all aspects of my life. Frankly, the fact I get so easily wound up irritates me more than anything.

           Well, this past 'season', It was brought to my attention that I was starting to get back into that old stress over stress over stress issue I have by the dear Lord the past 2 weeks. At this point, I was just so wrecked with myself, I finally sat still long enough to breathe and well, be still. I finally heard that little whisper in the back of my mind that I had been wanting to hear again. "Stress" and "tired" is what I could hear. The past two weeks I had been running myself into the ground, barely forcing myself to even stop and sleep. So, I looked up some bible verses on stress, and frustration, and it clicked that I don't need a timetable to get it all done. It's ok to stop and 'smell the roses' so to speak. Matthew 11:28-30. When you start to feel worried, stressed, overburdened, frustrated, tired, Just pray and lay it all at his feet...and leave it there! Philippians 4:6-7, *in my Bob Marley voice* 'don't worry bout a thing, cuz every little thing, is gonna be alright'. Pray, give thanks, don't get anxious or overwhelmed. When you pray, and just let him take the reins, the overwhelming peace you feel it's dumbfounding. It's like the feeling you get after you finished that incredibly hard project you were given to finish in 2 days for class...except like 10x better lol. Luke 21:34, we really should be careful on what 'freaks us out' and 'weighs us down'. In the end, if you let it overwhelm you, it really does feel like you're in a trap. It's not a fun experience.

            When it comes to being frustrated, which I am aware they both go hand in hand, I have found countless verses to try and remember also. While stress is more white rabbit's "I'm late, I'm late, for a very important date!", frustration is, for me, more like 'crap, there's a test today! ok, I got this' *looks at test and braindumps everything*. You can't think straight, or hardly at all depending on the level you're at. Deep breaths don't even seem to help any as you try to reanalyze the situation. I have 4 verses lined up: Isaiah 41:10, God is with us and will help us overcome our stress, fear, worries, he's always with us. John 16:33, Jesus overtook the world. Not even death itself could stop him. With that kind of father, why should really fret? human nature yea, but with the constant reminder of this, it definitely helps ease the load. 1 Peter 5:7, He cares for us. He WANTS us to lay down our worries, our troubles, our burdens, our happiness, our tear, everything. All He wants for us is to spread His word, show love, humility and have peace. And lastly, Philippians 4:7, the unexplainable peace of God. When you give everything to Him, the peace and security you feel is...well...unexplainable. It's almost like when you were a kid, and you were scared so you ran to be comforted in the arms of a parent..but somehow..it feels more peaceful than that.

           All we have to do is pray and have faith.Undeniable faith.James 1:6, believe with all your heart, other wise, you just get all wishy washy. Mark 11:24, Pray and you shall recieve. Believe it and it WILL be yours.  All it takes is even a little faith, be it, graduating school and going to college, starting a new job, learning how to adult, etc. John 11:40,  believe in God and you will see Him move before you. Matthew 17:20 even with the faith the size of a mustard seed, God will help you move mountains that are set before. The more faith, the more peace, the more you grow closer to God by leaps and bounds. Soon, looking back, what you thought was a mountain, was just a grain of sand compared to the power of God. You learn to just completely trust him, and that no matter what, He will bring you through whatever storm you face, and He'll bring you out of there shining brighter than you could imagine. Mark 10:27, with man, it's impossible. But with God, ALL things are possible. So, If you've been feeling like me, or know someone who's been in this 'rut'. I hope this helps you all some how.  Have a blessed day <3

intelligence, Wisdom, and tomfoolery

7-12-16

'Ello, 'Ello ladies and gents. Hope we're all doing well today :) woke up at 6am, i'm on coffee, so I'll do my best to stay on topic as much as possible LOL. We are in proverbs 10:13-14. I read these two lines and then i just kept reading these same two lines over and over again. Why it stuck with me, i have no idea. maybe someone out there needs this, maybe God's going *hinthint* *nudgenudge* and it's just flying over my head. Anyways...hop on to it!

So in the first part, 'Intelligence speaks words of wisdom'. We all have that one friend(that's kinda like that little voice in the back of your head that likes to tag team you). "don't do that", "you know it's dumb idea", "well what if we did it this way instead...", "you might not wanna hear it, but here's my two cents". Next, is 'but fools must be punished to learn their lesson". Again, we all have that one friend! "naw man it's good"*broken appendage*, "how would you know? you ever done it?!"*grounded for a month*, "here! hold my beer! watch this y'all!"*cue sirens*. The intellects, were really good in school. They learned quickly, helped other who needed the help, so long as it wasnt that guy who took their lunch money(is that still a thing now? i've been out of school a while lol). But really, even then, that intelligent person would still help that bully. probably cuz they knew they'd be their boss one day and could pay them back after biding their time...anyways....so yea intelligence. it's a good thing. Be it intel for the FBI, or computer tech, teacher, counselor, etc. You're gunna have to have the intelligence on a subject(s), to be able to give sound, wise advice, to the 'fool' who's off singing, *cyndi lauper voice* "girls, just wanna have fun" or that other one who reminds you of spongebob.

Next verse, "wise people are quiet and learn new things, but fools talk and bring trouble on themselves". Pretty plain and simple. You have your quiet people in class, or work, and then well...then you have those guys. The ones you wanna laugh at but dont cuz you know the boss or teacher will be right around the corner any second. Like this one guy i use to work with. He'd go back in the warehouse, and make a cubby hole in between boxes to take naps in an extremely 'i wouldn't of guessed some one was sleeping in there' fashion. I'd laugh a little, and i was that person, 'dude, you really shouldn't do that. you're gunna get caught one day and get in some real trouble if you dont end up fired'. 'nah, it's good, i wont get caught, now go on newbie before i do get caught' would be his reply, eventually, only looks would hold our routine convo. Back then i was, in fact, new to the job, and i was a huge people pleaser, and i firmly believed 'snitches get stitches'. So i just went about my own work, ignored him, and just watched, Some people might of say i jyinxed him tell him every time, 'you're gunna get busted. I promise it wont be me who says it, but you're gunna get busted. you should probably quit and actually work man". At this time, a few weeks had passed, and i'm just getting more and more agitated with his laziness, cuz we're having to pick up his slack. But i kept my mouth shut, and just kept working. After a while, he did get busted finally. Apparently this is something he did quite frequently, so when he was busted, he got fired. I usually am pretty quiet, i observe, learn quick, and i wont really socialized too terribly much until i know my job well enough to start multi-tasking. When i learn what needs to be known, and do it efficiently, i then start observing people more, and i turn into that intellect we spoke of earlier who would be 'wise' on occasion. "why do it that way? why not this way?", "i dont think that's a good idea. why dont you handle this situation this way instead?" I had a friend, who would do some not so very smart things..like he got taken home in cuffs a couple times. So after the third time, of trying to help him, i just quit..i was still there for him, like a good friend would be, but when he spoke about being in trouble, and how he wont do it again, only to end up doing it again...well..i just kinda sat there. One day it came to, "ok kac, throw me a bone...there's this thing going on, and i really wanna go, but i really dont wanna get in trouble again. help me out here" and i'd answer him. "i'm tired of you being in trouble. so listen up cuz i'm only saying this once. That's a terrible idea, you know d*** well it is! honestly, you shouldn't be asking if it's a good idea, because i know you know!" i'd start, and he'd sulk a bit like a scolded child going "i know, but i'm just not that smart most the time. i just wanna have fun', and i'd reply with something along the lines of "shut your mouth. you are smart. you just ignore the little voice in your head and you do it anyways. If you know or think it's a bad idea, it probably is. which means you shouldnt do it. when you can come to terms with that, and get your head out your behind, you'll understand how much easier life will be. you can be smart about things AND have fun at the same time" and with that i'd give him a hug say "i love ya like brother, i dont like seeing you hurt or in trouble, I've said my peace...the rest is up to you love." and we'd go off to whatever it was we were doing. I took him a few more years and i believe 10 days of jail time for it to finally all sink in.

So, In closing, Intelligence=wisdom, acting/being foolish=rough life. I'm sure you've all seen it. The two friends or  couples who are complete opposites? When i see these funny little couples, even in my own life, i'm like, 'i bet that's how my angel and God feels sometimes'. Where you're being told time and time again, 'that's not a good idea, how bout you do this instead', we ignore it, do our own thing anyways, and then comes the facepalm and the smack on the back of the head with a, 'i told you so'. Sometimes, it takes one time for a foolish person to catch the hint, sometimes it takes longer. Then we have the small percent that knows for a fact, and just does it anyways cuz 'it's the only life i know' and they end up getting themselves permanently in jail or killed. Best thing we can do is just pray about a person or ourselves. Pray for a discerning spirit on how to handle a certain situation, or that a certain individual gets smacked by the spirit, or God, for a wake up call to turn their life around. There's only so much us humans can do for another. The rest would be up the Holy Spirit and God himself. Have a blessed day y'all :)

Lying, Honesty, and Integrity

7-2-16

Time and time again, you'll here me say, 'we're not Jesus' and/or 'we're human'. This is definitely one of those times, so insert that remark where you see fit. Todays topic has actually been on my brain a bit. For multiple reasons. Some personal events that happened, my kids, concern of the world type things. Honesty and integrity. You would think they're one in the same, but there is a slight difference. Honesty is just 'yes, grandma, i took a cookie out the cookie jar' or, if you have children, you know exactly how honest they are lol. Integrity is more ethics and moral compass. It's what makes you go, 'It'd be better to tell the truth', or 'oh hey, i found a wallet, i should turn that in so the owner could find it' type stuff. So as you can see, while they're linked to one another, they're actually different. Then lying, well, who likes to be lied to?

Honesty is such a very fragile thing. A single lie can cause so much distrust. When you lose trust due to lack of honesty, be it with friends, family, or at work, it's usually VERY hard to get back. There's a song i absolutely love by Francesca battistelli, it starts Truth is harder than a lie; the dark seems safer than the light; And everyone has a heart that loves to hide. Those few verses in the beginning of that song hold so much truth. It is easier to just lie. But when you start start lying, it gets increasingly harder especially keeping up with what lies go with what to keep people from knowing you're lying. According to proverbs 16:13, "righteous lips are a delight of a king, and he loves him who speaks what is right. Another verse, proverbs 12:22 states, "lying lips are an abomination to the Lord". I don't know about y'all, but i hate being lied to, I hate lying period. I don't even like 'white lies' all that much. Yea they're 'good' when you're planning a surprise party or something, but even a half truth is still a lie. Because, you aren't telling the complete truth. As you keep lying, you try to keep more to the shadow, or 'under the radar', cuz you know if you came out 'into the light' all those things you did would end up coming out at some point. But as you hide, you harden your heart. You try so hard to keep up all these walls and barriers, and it's not very fun. Especially when you're put in a spot to break down those walls you had for YEARS and encased and infused with the strongest metal in world. It's a very painful barrier to overcome. Like any parent, i'm tryin to so hard to keep my children from going down that painful road. While some of the things they say are sometimes cruelly honest, i still hold it in reverence, cuz i don't want them to lose that pure honesty they have. If you were to meet my family, or my friends, they can tell you how brutally honest i can be. We just have to work on tact LOL. anyways. While lying and such is easier, It's so much better to be honest. Cuz then, you have nothing to hide. You can walk out 'in the light' with your head held high. When you keep to honesty, you'll be held by a not only a higher standard that sets you apart from others, but,  you gain respect and be seen as reliable on many different levels. You'll become more of a 'go-to' person by friends and workers. People would rather come to you and seek advice on things when they know they'll get an honest answer. Even if that answer is, 'no. that's a stupid idea! why would you even ask that?!'.

 Proverbs 28:6 says, "greater is the poor who walks in integrity, than a rich man who is crooked in his ways", and Proverbs 10:9 "whoever walks in integrity walks securely, but he who makes his way crooked with be found out". Integrity is like the meat of the soul. It's what shows your character. It's also that sometimes annoying voice in the back of your head that sings, "you shoooooouldn't doooo thaaaat", or says, "probably should of kept your mouth shut on that part', or 'smack them upside the head and murder their soul with love and truth cuz they need some help right now'. Or something like that. Everyone's voices are different. QUIT LYIN! YOU HAZ VOICES TOO! why do you think you talk to yourself? lol, I promise i'm only slightly crazy :D. Anyways lol. At this point, i'm gunna run a few scenario's out there. I feel like with examples i can better put integrity on the spotlight. Billy really wants to go out and play, but he had to do his home work first. 'MA! can i go play now?' 'you finish your homework?' in this case, the choices are simply yes or no. Integrity dictates saying 'no' finishing your homework, and then hope there's time left in the day to go play. But Billy really wanted to go play and said 'yes'. Later, when he was actually doing his homework, he got caught, and is now in trouble. His integrity and honesty are now compromised. So now, next time Billy says he's done with his homework, his mother checks after him due to his damaged character. Another example, personal at that. I had my kids at a park and i found a wallet. I picked it up and rummaged through it like any nosy woman would. At this point some of you might be groaning, but hang on. I rummaged through it only for the debit cards..stop thinking bad thoughts about me, that hurts T-T...I turned the cards over, called the 800 number on the back, and had all his cards frozen, then i gathered my 2 children, and went to a police station to turn it in. At a old job, I tried helping out someone with their job, and my boss came over and asked if it was me who had done it. I said i helped as best i could cuz so and so was busy and i just wanted to help. While they thanked me for being completely honest and showing great integrity, teamwork, work ethic and such, I didn't do it correctly, so now it was gunna take a little longer for the job. I immediately apologized and asked to be shown the correct way to do it so i could fix help fix the situation at hand to help cut down on the workload i had mistakenly added. I learned quickly, and workhorsed through that mug. Even with the mess up, still help cut down the time of the job. So when i had a person try to slander my name, i was able to keep my head up high and just brush it off. My character and integrity wasn't going to be compromised. As soon as it happened, people nearby who knew me, immediately called that person out and defended me. It's people who slander and try to cause issues, that pave way for crooked advances in life. Sometimes they get blocked on spot, sometimes they end up being big time CEO's before they fall on their faces. Like that Pharama guy who was making it impossible for cancer patients to afford a certain medication and is now in jail for fraud. In 2 Corith 8:21, "for we aim at what is honorable not only in the Lord's sight, but the sight of man". The way in life is not paved easily for those who lack integrity, honesty, those tiny little voices. They crawl and claw their way up stepping on others in their path. But when we do what's of good integrity, While sometimes it might be a snail crawl at first, soon after it's by leaps and bounds we advance. The advance may be small steps at a time, but it'll happen. That one that crawled and clawed, when they fall on their face, they'll be back at the bottom of the barrel, and have to start over again IF they can. While the one who remained in good integrity, has more options and room to grow and advance if desired. Don't get me wrong, having really good integrity can be extremely hard in times. Especially when you have to admit you were wrong about something or did something wrong. Acts 24:16, "so i always take pains to have a clear conscience towards both God and man". Even when it's admitting to dear ol grandma that you stole the last cookie with out asking.

Hatred vs Love

7-1-16

Hatred vs Love

"Hatred causes arguments, but Love overlooks all wrongs"- Proverbs 10:12

That single verse, has so much i can say right now. My brain is pretty much exploding with all sorts of thoughts, I'll try not to go overboard lol.

Hatred, hostility, dislike, rage, enmity, disgust, there are lots of alternate ways to express hate. Unfortunately, this is something most Christians I, and some others (which causes problems when speaking of God to others), run into. We aren't here to spread hate and discord among everyone. Especially through our own congregation. When the hate for something comes into play, we start judging. if you've read one of my previous posts you'll know judging isn't our thing to do(but right now we're not going back into judging lol). Now, we can hate evil things til the cows come home. Even in psalms 97:10, it starts off with "hate evil" then goes on with "protect followers save them from evil people". The last part in my opinion would be more like, someone who would purposefully get you off track with God. As far as "hate evil", well, you can hate it, but you shouldn't hate that person. We're all human, we've all done something 'evil' in our lives. Told a lie, watched something we shouldn't have, broken some sort law(sometimes on many different levels), etc. Evil has a variety of faces(but perhaps that's something to dwell on for another time). Prime example of hatred, and i really do hate bashing on people, but, Westboro baptists. I'm sure we're all way to familiar with them. I'm sure not all of them like that, or the ones who weren't left and found a new church idk. But, how much hate for something or someone do you have to have, to boycott someones funeral? I'll just stop that right now, cuz I'm deeply disappointed in westboro's behavior and how they call themselves Christians. That's now how a true christian acts.Anyways...Hatred causes all sorts of issues. It'll cause gossip, judgment, fights, racism, prejudice, even something as bad as murder. I mean, we still have people thinking slavery shouldn't of been abolished, that just because someone is gay, or doesn't believe the same thing as themselves are wrong, evil, 'damned to hell', has mental issues, etc...it's messed up. Hate is just....for me, wrong on so many levels. I guess mostly cuz of how the world is now. Yes, we're suppose to hate evil things, but it seems to have expanded not only to evil things, but to the individual people themselves..

I have friends, even now, that may or may not believe in God, some are gay, bi, straight, transgender, does drugs, doesn't do drugs, different religious beliefs, and i don't care. I only care about them as a person. Not to sound like a hippie, but, you gotta spread the love man! Not that kind of love!! that ones only for your spouse! Love, affection, fondness, endearment, etc; like hate, love also has many faces. All throughout the bible it states to love one another. even a commandment(mark12:31), love your neighbor as  you love yourself. luke 6:31, do unto others as you would have done to you. luke 6:35,love your enemies, lend to them without expecting anything back". Jesus was all about the love. He didn't care if someone was a thief, a prostitute, gay, a murder, he loved everyone just the same as the guy next to him. He cared for EVERYONE with all different kinds of background. He didn't spread bigoted hatred, he only showed love and compassion for everyone. Even if he didn't agree with something someone was doing, he loved them just same. It's like with your own children(or students). They may mess up, they may end up taking a wrong turn somewhere, but you still love them regardless. You show the same love as the first time you met them. Even before you got to meet them. Yes, you were unhappy with what they did, or the decisions they made, but you loved them just the same. Same as with God. Yes, we mess up. we're human, we're GOING to mess up. No matter what we do, as long as we are truly sorry for what we did, he'll forgive us, just as we would our children. Even IN sin, while he hates that sin, he doesn't hate US, he still loves us very much. "above all, love each other deeply. because love covers a multitude of sin" 1 peter 4:8. Even growing up, I had a variety of friends, christian, not christian, very not christian. But i still love each and every one of them all the same. My view of them wont change. Because they're still who they are, and I'm still me. We never treated each other differently or acted a certain way just because who we were around. I didn't believe in the "don't hang out with them, those are bad people, they don't believe in God. They'll make you stray from God's path" mentality. Granted I did cuz i was a huge people pleaser  and just wanted everyone to get along and be happy, but you don't have to have it end up that way. YOU choose, how YOU behave, what YOU do, all by your onsies. It's up to YOU to fight those temptations. It's not so and so's fault, it's not the music, movies, or books you read that determine who you are and how you act. That's all you, you, you, you, and YOU! Honestly, This world would be so much better with more love(now i really sound like a hippie lol). But really. It would. Yes obviously there are always going to be consequences to actions. As it should be. By no means am i going 'oh you murdered someone? OK i still love you just don't do it again" and give a little pee pee smack. No.  If you mess up, you mess up. I might still love you as a person, and sometimes, it'll hurt to love you. but all the same i will. YOU, i wont love what you did, are doing, what you plan to do, things that are against my personal beliefs, but YOU, i'll still love.  1john 4:7; 'dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God'

have a blessed day guys :) i could probably drone on and on but think i kept it decently short and to the point enough to express my feelings on the matter. Til next time!!

Debt,Laziness, and Troublemakes

6-29-16

Hey all! it's been a while! My brain had to sort through stuff, and even though i've been reading, nothing in particular peeked my interest for thought sharing. not that the Bible's a bad read, it's extremely good! There's just days where i'm like, 'oh cool! how interesting' and other days where i'm like, "zomg! i haz to share diz!"(i'm on my 3rd cup of coffee after a month of no coffeez by the by ZING!) so how's bout we get started :)

In the beginning...i'm just kidding.

Nah, but anyways, So i was reading some proverbs this morning. Lot of juicy bit in there. I got to chapter 6, and got stuck on it. So figured it's probably one of those 'have to share it' things. The first part talks about Debt. Debt obviously no one really likes anyway. I seem to always get in it even though i absolutely HATE getting put in a position where i owe anyone(even family members) money. Like i had to borrow a dollar from a friend one time so i could eat lunch. Yea i had a complete fit when i took it. But i'm also, which is a work in progress, and very prideful person when it comes to asking for and admitting i need help. Asking for a $1 was just icing on the cake. Cuz then even though friends help friend, family helps family, you'd figured "oh no big deal. it's what friends and family does. they help take care of each other in times of need". I'm all for helping when i can. But when it comes to my prideful self, i now feel like they have some sort of magical hold over me cuz now i owe them. Speaking of magical hold over me, it actually says that in this small script of debt, v3 to be exact, "You will be under the power of other people, so you must go and free yourself. Beg them to free you from that debt". But i think in this sense, it was more of actually loaning money, large sums specifically, like pulling out loans to buy a house, or a new car, repairs for a car, credit cards, so on. But still, i fret over a little dollar. What's even more sad, when i ask my own husband, who's sole job is to provide for this family, if there's something i want, like more crafting or gardening supplies, i ask to BORROW money most the time, and then i work extra hard around the house to try to 'pay him back'. So pray i get better on that aspect. enough about my problems...or maybe that was the point of me getting stuck on this. Was to fully come full circle to my problems...anyways..debt=bad. debt= loans of any kind, credit cards, medical bills, apparently from what i just read on the interwebs even utilities count as being in debt. which i can see, but i'm not about to give up my electricity or water sooooooo(sorry big guy!)....moving on!

next part spoke of Laziness. It spoke of comparing yourself to ants. Although it says ants dont have a boss, or a ruler(which they have queen ants to take care of, not that they knew that back then), that they worked hard collected what needed to be collected in order to survive the winter. The analogy there would be, As the ants work to survive, so should we. We shouldnt be just sitting on our behinds asking for handouts. I firmly believe this(and it's probably why i hate asking for anything. like in middle school, i wouldnt even ask for a .50 cent pkg of paper from my parents). I hate when i have to ask for handouts. I dislike people who make it a job to get handouts for a living. Because as you just sit there, like a bump on a log, poppin out babies right and left that you can't even afford to have, joe shmoe is working his behind off trying to provide for HIS family, then taking a hefty paycheck cut to pay for you to sit on your behind...sorry...well, not really..but it just really strikes my nerves even thinking about it. Especially, when it gets bad enough to where children suffer because it, even more so, when the carelessness of said person end up going too overboard, and now their whole family is out on the street....anywho..

troublemakers. Trouble makers, are your usual everyday child nowadays it seems. always scheming, coming up with lies to stay out of trouble, getting into trouble on purpose. i was one of those children once upon a time like i'm sure most everyone, just seems to get worse and worse each generation. But, as the saying goes, 'what goes around, comes around'. You'll get caught and slip up eventually. There's always consequences to actions. In school, when you rely on your friends to help you pass a test. You take a placement test in college and find out youre still on a high school level of learning cuz you didnt bother to put forth* the effort in trying to learn in school. you were lazy and took the easy way out. The bullies, who picked on all the nerds, some of them kept their heads high, stayed out of trouble, and are now your boss. Those who got in a lot of fights in school and just couldnt stop with the violence, are now in jail. Some people in violence, ended up loosing complete control, and ended up becoming a murderer or a rapist. Yes some turn over a new leaf, actually try to be better, and it's hard because of the road we chose to travel. Once you go down that road, it's hard sometimes to keep off that path. cuz you done it already, you know what it's like, sometimes how much easier it seems to make things(backsliding). But really, deep down, you know it's a hard road and someone, even yourself, will get hurt somehow in the grand scheme of things. Cuz that's just how it works. You sin and cause trouble, and eventually it all catches up to and just completely destroys your life...

Y'all have a blessed day! i'm gunna go sulk in a corner somewhere and try to fight off the devil who's now nagging in my ear and making me feel insignificant and depressed....or maybe i'm just feeling convicted...or both...i dont even know anymore..see y'all again in a few days :)

A small touch on marriage

6-24-16

Thumbing through 1 Corinthians(7:2-16)came across a small section concerning a married life.nso lets dive into my oh so lovely thought process:)

Marriage, is suppose to be that magical time when all the stars align and you get to start 'going forth and multiplying'! Bible says it IS when this is allowed to happen, i said suppose. Bout 8th grade, I reach womanhood, and freshman year i fell off the wagon..a lot. After womanhood arrived and such, i began getting snappy with the parental units because of well..various things. Teenagers smh..anyhow..moving on!

Once married, you get all the two person parties you want. I had a fun fact lined up but mr Spirit said it wasnt a good idea to post it in this dialog >.> party pooper. Anyways. At v3, 'husband should fulfil his marital duties, and same goes for the wife'. Now by marital duties im 99.99% it means more than just chicka chicka boom boom. Fix things around the house, help each other raise the children you created or adopted, going in the kitchen to make sandwiches. That kinda stuff(i know i have horrible humor lol).

over to the right, back on track to the path of kacies deciphering. we have further down that once you are married, you become one flesh. A dynamic duo, 2 peas in a pod, ok im done. That being said, it means, respectively, that each body belongs to the other. A woman is to yield her body to her husband, and a husband to his wife. This does NOT mean when your spouse says 'negative ghost rider' to you getting some, that you go 'tough' and do it anyway. Thats rape. Rape is bad. Its also lacking self control, and it's showing lack of respect to you spouse. Best bet is to just chill, go pray for a day or two. Or a week if it's that time(unless thats your thing) then join together after. In this way, you gain better self control, and satan cant weasel his grubby fingers in your marriage making you lose your control. At least that was my take.

Down to v8. It speaks of being unmarried and widows. Said it was good to remain unmarried, but if you still get them urges to just go ahead and marry. Cuz its better to marry and the. Do your thing vs letting your urges take control over you. cuz more than likely when you're freebirding it at every nest you find, thats how diseases spread. And thats just nasty. Going on, it also speaks on divorce. God unites a man and woman ONCE. When you marry 'til death do you part' you are one flesh period, dot, even if you split up, God still sees you as one. This is based of a scripture in mark 5:31-32, it reads pretty much, that:

"It was also said, ‘Any man who divorces his wife must give her a written notice of divorce.’[a] 32 But I tell you that any man who divorces his wife, except for the problem of sexual sin, is causing his wife to be guilty of adultery. And whoever marries a divorced woman is guilty of adultery." 

V12-14 speak of a believer and unbeliever being married. How if you came together and are willing to live with each other, you must not divorce. For the unbelieving husband is sanctified by his wife, an the unbelieving wife will be sanctified by her husband. Now, from the sounds of the last couple verses, it says 'should the UNbeliver leave, let it be so. Who are you to know if you can save them or not?'. So in this case, and im not 100% positive, if the UNbeliever leave, the bonding ties are no longer there. I shall conduct more research on that and/or ask a pastor for their insight on it. 

Well this message has been brought to by kacies brain. And i do believe thats all for the day. If i get my answer, ill update this post at a later time. For now my interest seems to turned its head to veiwing/wondering about all of Gods laws. Cuz i know theres the 10 commandments, but i wonder if theres more. Kinda like how our laws have little additives to fill in 'loopholes'. I shall return soon! Have a blessed day <3

Where's God?

6-18-16

I was reading habakkuk today, and it kinda struck a cord. Its only a 3 chapter book, so if you wanna read it and have any other input, feel free to read it, or this post, and just comment below :)

Starts off with Habakkuk complaing and accusing God. Some of the things he accused God of are: not listening, allowing violence, allowing injustice, forcing people to watch it all transpire, pretty much evil triumph over good.

I dont know about you guys. But how i see the world now, is like habakkuk did. And im sure like many other, sometimes we just go, 'God, why is all this happening? Dont you hear us? Are you even there?'. We have explosive(literally) violence, shootings, really bad people getting off scotch-free just because the have money and/or have the right connections. Media doesnt help. Theyll blow something way out of proportion like 'oh look! The bird that had a broken wing is healed and flew off into the sunset! Its so beautiful and spectacular! Why do people hate birds?!' And the. On the flip side, "susie sheep whos been wheel chair bound for 50+years walked today. That is all nothing to see here". Or "one of the senators saved a kitten today! Hes such a wonderful person and a real hero and role model' vs "a fire started late last night burning down multiple homes. Firefighters worked around the clock. Good job. Stuff..and things..'. Anyways......yea. I can hardly watch the news anyways. Set aside from overdramatize news articles about common, everyday happenings to everyone person on the planet, type articles to the horrific violent ones. My heart just feels like it could shatter in a million pieces.  And I just sit and wonder why all this is happening and why cant God just make it all stop.

Well, he is there. And he is listening, he cares, and he's constantly in work. Here and there in the passage God answered habakkuk. Essentially saying, im gunna lit em puff out like the hottest, baddest roster on the block, then im gunna break their necks. My brains a little off but thats my rough translation(lol?). He said to look at other nations, and he points out whats going on and reveals what he plans to do. In the end those people are gunna be scoffed at, looked down on, get a taste of their own medicine, karama, what have you. They might as well be a leaf in the wind. Cuz in the end, when God gets everything lined up just right, as the old sunday school song goes, "im gunna walk to the enemies camp, and take back what he stole from me" type thing.

We have to patience . It sucks, i know. Word of advice, and off topic, never pray for patience. I wouldnt even pray that on my enemies. And ways, back on subject. We have to be patient. Sometimes, standing on rusty nails in anticipation patience. God, much likes texas, likes to go big! Like equivalent of dropping a nuke big(that was probably a horrible metaphor). Lets put it this way. If God kept everything peaceful and serene, and every day was like, 'aww m, you haz stifflez? Here all better!', or 'poor thing. You have a boo-boo. Lemme kiss it make it better', or 'oh, tou lost your homework? Here, have a brand new copy' we'd essentially just go 'woohoo!' And that would be it. We'd go on about out day as if nothing extraordinary happened. Granted, yes, God will work on a small-ish scale, but he mostly keeps out the big guns. He doesnt want 'woohoo'. He wants, 'PRAISE GOD GLORY HALLELUJAH!!' Type thjng.

Here's some examples of a small-ish scale, to some big stuff. Narrowly avoiding a collsion. Getting out of a speeding ticket you couldnt afford anyway. Coming out unscathed from a bad wreck. Recovering from drugs and alcohol,  tumors or cancer miraculously disappearing as if it never happened in the first place. Neighboring bully town who terrorized everyone getting a face full of united surrounding towns to put them back in their place. Very bad people getting the correct punishment. Bad goverment officials or leaders being 'dethroned'. Boston bomber, caught and dealt with.  9/11 terrorist attacks eradicated. Things that are in work, monumental donations being sent to people who are having issues with food and water. New learders taking their places. People standing up for what is right despite consequences. Terrorists being delt with accordingly. People standing up for one another in the face of racism and narrow minded hate speech. People being healed head to toe. The world is slowly becoming a more united front as a whole.

Trust me. God is still very much there. He hears our cries. As i said. Patience. We also need to really open our eyes and see everything going on. Even in the worst situation, God is there working. We have to believe he's there, believe he's listening, believe hes gunna do something, then just wait, watch, and listen. Then, when we witness or hear something, give praise, make a joyful noise. Even if  its something small. 

Still here

6-12-16

Yep still here. Just tryin to figure out a new passage to speak my thoughts about. Been real crazy with mocing and all on my end. So hopefully soon i can actually sit down and do something lol

Submitting to God

6-6-16

Diving in once again in the book of James lol. It's short, but there's just SO much good info in there! Today, we'll be going over chapter 4, verses 1-12. In the comments below, feel free to state your opinions or if there's something you'd like me to go over. I'm always down for learning, conversing, and having a good read :D

So, lets dive right in shall we?

What causes fighting and arguing? Be it with family, friends, strangers...God himself.

• desire to have something you don't currently have
• not having your way
• not receiving the answer you want from God(because you asked with ulterior motives)
• being excessively proud instead of being humble

These are a few and very general answers to that. In verses 6-7 it reads(NIV version), "God opposes the proud, but shows favor to the humble. Submit to God, resist the devil, and he will flee".

Well, what exactly is submitting to God. Submit by definition reads, "accept or yield to a superior force or to the authority or will of another person". You completely just go "i give up God, i'm stepping out of the way, i'm not even gunna care anymore. All this (emotion[s]) i feel right now, what's going on with (object or person[s]), i'm laying it at your feet and walking away. You can handle it in a more reasonable and efficient manner than i can ever think of. So, here you go big guy. i'm washing my hands of it. YOU let ME know if there's anything on my end I need to do".

Spouse giving you issues on your beliefs? submit to God, duck out the way, and let God punch them in the face for you. The best thing you can do you for your spouse, it's to just stand back and pray.

Car acting up and you're already tight on funds? Submit it God. Cast every single worry on him and watch him do his thing. You might all of a sudden feel the need to call and vent to a certain person. Next thing you know, that person is lending you the money. Your taxes might of dropped into your bank account at just the right moment. You can say the fix is to expensive, feeling completely and totally defeated and God might land you a better deal with that same shop or somewhere else. Or, you car and "magically" fix itself and you dont have to worry about it at all.

By no means am I trying to say, "ok God, i submit all my bills and responsibilities on you. here you go!" then not pay bills or go to work. That's not how it works. When Adam and Eve were banished from the garden of Eden, God said we were gunna have to work and earn our keep from now on. We still have to do our part. He's our support system so to speak.

Resist the devil. The devil wants you to worry, to fight, be distracted, break God's laws, even so low as to killing one another. All because he works his way in and flips a few switches in your head, whispering in your ear that just drives you up the wall. Be it jealous of someone elses car, wife, how someone else has more money than you, how they seem to have this picture perfect life and you got stuck with rotten hotdogs, etc. Resist these urges and ways of thinking, submit and pray to God, and the devil will have to leave. If you take 1 step towards God, he'll take 10 steps towards you. Don't get distracted by friends or conformity. That's the low road. And a very rough one at that.

When we conform, love, put faith in worldly things, we're putting the other people and the world before God. When you put something above God, he takes it as a form of enmity. That he's being resented, that we're being hostile, or just down right spiteful! God jealously wants us to be with him. After all, he created us. Why wouldnt he get jealous when someone places something or someone else before him?

"But, arent we suppose to NOT be jealous? Why does God get to?" you say? Well, that all good and true, but here's the thing. What happens when WE get jealous? Usually 9 times out of 10, we act and lash out. "you lookin at my girl?!" *throat chop*(for example). We can get VERY hostile and act so negatively, we can more easily fall into sin. When we can fall into sin, the devil takes even the slightest inch, and runs a 5k marathon with it. God, on the other hand, might sigh a little. Your guardian angel might facepalm him/herself for the upteenth time that day. But God won't lash out. He'll calmly offer you back his hand time and time again. Being ever so patient and merciful. Granting us grace every single time. Eventually he'll be able to reach you and hold out his hand. This is where our free will comes into play. Either we accept his hand, or we essentially spit in face. But, that's a topic for another time in the near future.

Another thing to submit to God, is a judgmental spirit. Verses 11-12 read, "do not slander each other. anyone who speaks against a brother or sister, or judges them, speaks against the law and judges it. When you judge the law, you aren't keeping it, but sitting in judgement on it. There is only one lawgiver and judge, the ONE who is able to save and destroy. But you- who are you to judge your neighbor?"

Neighbor wants to sacrifice to satan? not your place to judge

Ringing up a customer who it's flamboyantly gay? not your place to judge

Found out your bff is a closet raging alcoholic? not your place to judge.

Saw a fellow church member cheating on their spouse? not your place to judge. 

Being judged for being judgmental? that's one of MANY of God's domains.

Am I saying all the above mentioned is ok, or to conform to it? no. i'm not. What i'm saying is we need to submit these same feelings to God, and let HIM deal with that. Our Job is to pray. Ask God for you and whoever to both have open minds and hearts, and ask God what HE wants you to do about it. If you wanna help someone, both you and that other persons heart and mind have to be just right and perfectly lined up with God for it to be effective. Shoot, That one person, might not even be your problem. That person could be for someone else to help. This is why we pray. So we can act according to GOD'S will, and not of the flesh(again another topic for another time). Just leave it to God. He'll tell/show you what you need to do at the correct moment.

The Battle Plan for Prayer: from Basic Training to Targeted Strategies

6-3-16

    Mornin' y'all! another couple quick chapters today! If you haven't already, get this book! After some heavy thinking, and fear of being sued over copyright infringement or something retarded. I've decided to leave last posts couple chapters as the last one of that segment. I'll be finishing up the book myself and give a final review on it later down the road.

    This book, after only a few chapter, I'm already giving it 20 stars out of 5. This book has been beyond amazing and a real eye opener so far. This book has a total of 35 Chapters, and added bonus material in the back that has other awesome info you dont wanna miss out on(i've already peeked ahead lol).

    I'll being hitting the good ol' Bible up more often, and see if i cant find anything that catches my attention. Lately i've been stuck in James. Which is a great book by the way! Heck, maybe i'll just write out my personal notes on the whole bible! JK!! i'll do bits and pieces here and there. My goal is to pray over myself and the bible, open up the table of contents, and scan the books. Whatever book catches my eye, i'll read through til i get stuck. Seems to be bit of a trend for me. I'll read a certain part, then i can't read past it. I assume it's God's way of saying "hey, read it more carefully". I heavily encourage everyone to pray over themselves and their bible and seek guidance on passages for the day.

    In closing, I'll repeat myself. Click the hyperlink provided above. It takes you to Amazon. The book is only $10! GET IT!!!!! If you're a seasoned prayer warrior, or like me and just now really only beginning and dont know where exactly to start, this book is amazing. It would even make an amazing lesson for your youth(like HS freshman) or college classes. Or any age from youth group up. It can be a 35 week course. Shorter, if you wanna 2 chapters at a time or whatever.

see ya laters!! have a blessed day!

Faith vs Doubt; Secret vs Show

6-2-16

Well go over a couple chapters today. They were both relatively short chapters and i skipped yesterday. So here's chapters 16-17!

Faith vs Doubt:
"Let him ask in faith without doubting. For the doubter is like the surging sea, driven and tossed by the wind. That person shouldn't expect to receive anything from the Lord" -James 1:6-7

  First off, God is not unaware, unable, uncaring, OR, unlikely to answer your prayers. The issue is, sometimes, our heart can be right with people and God, but for some reason, every now and then, we'll have doubts. These doubts create barriers. By doubts I mean we might sometimes deny the faithfulness or goodness of God. Sometimes we let those seeds of doubt get whispered in our ear that cause us to not be 100% faithful in God. Sometimes we think our ability in prayer isn't good enough for God to even bother listening to also. When we doubt, then our prayers, more often than not, don't get answered. When we don't get an answered prayer, we doubt even further, and sometimes we end up just not praying at all. We end up creating our own misconceptions about God's ability, love, understandings. We'll even go so far as thinking God doesn't care and doesn't wanna help us anyways. We're gunna go over 4 common misconceptions further.

1: God doesn't know or understand my needs.
   Uh, HELLO!! Yea he does! He knows you better than you know yourself. He alone knows how many hairs are on your head, He knows exactly about what feelings you have. The guy had his own Son sacrificed(albeit willingly on Jesus' part) for the sake of the world for cryin out loud! He made us, then we pretty much spit in His face. God: hey..dont do that. Us: hey! hold me beer! watch this y'all!('merica). So don't even go there!! God is too good, merciful, and loving to just toss us to the side like that.

    When we pray, we're spending our time and focusing on God. Prayer is our way to know, love, and worship God. Learning what HIS will is and learning how to walk that path. Learning and being joyous to gain ground and advance HIS kingdom. Making a joyful noise when we witness HIS power and glory. Let me put it this way. Lets say, you have the power of mind reading! you get to know every thought, want, need, of YOUR child. The child knows you know what's on their mind(s). Wouldn't you still want your child to talk and spend time with you? Even if you already knew everything? To experience each others love for one another and help give your child the wisdom they need?

2: God isn't able to help.
    HOLD THE PHONE! GOD isnt able to help?! the one who CREATED the whole ENTIRE earth and all of it's inhabitants?! Sit down son! God, is "able to go ABOVE and BEYOND all that we ask OR think"(Ephesians 3:20); "If we ask anything according to HIS will, He will hear us"(1 John 5:14); "Jesus looked at them and said, 'This is something that people cannot do. But GOD can do anything'"(Matthew 19:26). Good day to you sir! GOOD DAY!

3: God doesn't care.
   McScuse me?! A lack of immediate action hardly merits the thought that HE doesnt care! You're still breathing right? He didnt just go "screw it!", snapped his fingers and everything he cared to create just disappear like that to just start over right? You have to be PERSISTENT!!!!!!  

4: God isn't likely to do anything anyways.
    NOT WITH THAT KIND OF ATTITUDE HE WONT! How many games have you won with that kind of attitude? when you lost, because of your attitude, how much more worse did you make yourself feel? God is willing to listen, respond, counsel, comfort, encourage, and everything else under the sky for you!  WE are the ones who are weak and unwilling. Not God! Bye Felicia!

   Keep in mind folks, God is NOT a genie. You dont rub some magic lamp, get three wishes, then he washes His hands of you. That's not how God works. Your 'battle plan' for your prayers should be consisting of the following: EXPECT Him to know your heart and what you truly need.BELIEVE that no limitations bind God, that he CAN and WILL do anything. ANTICIPATE that He will respond to you with love, compassion, and mercy. Like a kid in a candy store, you're gunna be expecting to leave with candy; Same thing should apply with prayer, you should be praying and anticipate you're gunna walk away with an answer. ASSUME that He is there and listening, willing to come to YOUR aid and to HELP you. Everyday, you need to be asking the Lord to reveal himself and his plans to you. Ask for guidance, protection, wisdom, scripture to help you with something, ANYTHING, EVERY DAY!

Secret vs Show:
"There are some things that the Lord our God has kept secret. Only HE knows these things. And these teachings are for us and our descendants forever. And we much obeay all the commands in that Law" Deuteronomy 29:29

   If you haven't noticed before, Jesus' main way of praying was always by himself(don't feel bad i didnt either til i read this book). His routine was to wake up early before everyone else, and go have him so Daddy and Me time(paraphrasing Mark 1:35). "Send everyone away in the afternoon and escape to a solitary place", Mark 6:46, or "stay up late", Luke 6:12(again paraphrasing). Essentially, do what you gotta do to get some personal one on one time God. It's not all about being out on a street corner praying out loud for the world to hear while you're damning them to hell. That's being self centered and hypocritical. In Matthew 6:5 it says, "when you pray, don't be like the hypocrites. They love to stand in the synagogues and on the street corners praying loudly. They want people to see them. The truth is, that's all the reward they will get". So, just ignore them and let them be trolls. Dont be or feed the trolls. OUR goal should only be to go after and please GOD.
 
    Don't get me wrong, praying in public is perfectly fine. Leading others in prayer where your only focus is on God and not to gain attention is GOOD. It's when you go 'hey look at me! i'm praying!' that there's a disconnect. It's not about what other people think about us. It's what God thinks about us. God is the only one who can judge us anyways. God absolutely despises pride and hypocrisy.

  Getting alone, and praying to God in secret, is not only fundamental, it's also foundational. Secret prayer puts us in a situation where you can remove ALL distractions and focus your attention all on Him. "therefore, humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you at the proper time, casting all your anxiety on Him, because he loves you" 1 Peter 6:6-7. Matthew 6:6, "The Lord is IN the secret place, sees what you do, and rewards what is done in secret"! If God's in the 'secret place' why not go there too and have a party! I mean, who doesn't wanna be rewarded, have requests met, get some good ol' one on one time? Jesus even commands us to see out God in secret. Shouldn't we listen?

If you're answers prove to show more prayer in public, more than likely you're seeking the approval of MEN not God. Even if you pray in secret; if you brag about it in public, it's no different and now you're just being downright prideful. If it's one on one you're seeking and you dont care about anyone else. you're motives are pure. "as he thinks in his heart, so is he" proverbs 23:7. The secret to your success, comes from your secret place; your failure, comes from failure in your secret place.

That's all for today folks! hope you enjoyed it and have a blessed day!

Issues About Christians

5-31-16

             There are 3 things with Christians that have always bothered me. Honestly it's what kept me from church. Recently I found that it's not about those people. The point of church is to go to be in the presence of the Lord with other true believers. Yeah, I said TRUE believers. True believers run hot for the Lord and we'll get to that later on in this post. Right now we're gunna start with the good ol' book of James.

James 1:19-27English Standard Version (ESV)

Hearing and Doing the Word

19 Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear,slow to speak, slow to anger; 20 for the anger of man does not produce the righteousness of God. 21 Therefore put away all filthiness and rampant wickedness and receive with meekness the implanted word,which is able to save your souls.

22 But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves.23 For if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man who looks intently at his natural face in a mirror. 24 For he looks at himself and goes away and at once forgets what he was like. 25 But the one who looks into the perfect law, the law of liberty, and perseveres, being no hearer who forgets but a doer who acts, he will be blessed in his doing.

26 If anyone thinks he is religious and does not bridle his tongue but deceives his heart, this person's religion is worthless. 27 Religion that is pure and undefiled before God, the Father, is this: to visit orphans and widows in their affliction, and to keep oneself unstained from the world.

                                             Issue 1

     Plain and simple, we have too many sayers, no ones really listening, and not enough are actually living out His word. On one side of the spectrum, we have Billy. Billy likes to pray and worship at church. But Billy also like to pray and worship outside of church, even in public with random strangers. Billy also likes to take care of those who are truly in need. On the other side of the spectrum, we have Nancy. Nancy likes to pray and worship God also! But, as soon as Nancy leaves church, she parties like a rock star, spews out profanities, and then speaks curses to the cop who's trying to get to put her clothes back on. Dont be like Nancy. We need more Billy's. We also shouldn't be flying off the rails at the drop of  a hat when something doesn't go as planned, or when Sally Sue makes us mad for letting her dog crap in your yard. We're suppose to be SLOW to anger. We're suppose to not only sit quietly and listen, but we're suppose to retain the knowledge learned and APPLY it, in our daily lives HUMBLY. We're not suppose to be like Nancy who acts the part in church, then after turns into the devils stunt double!

     When we can obey God's laws, we can and will be abundantly blessed. Like Billy, we need to always help those in need, always pray, and study his word DAILY. You can think you're religious all you want, but if you have the lifestyle of Nancy, you might as well be talking at a brick wall. I say this because, when you're like Nancy, your praises and worship mean absolutely nothing. It's like telling God "hey, i'm good enough like this. I don't follow all your rules". God wants, needs, and deserves your full attention, to have his rules followed. We have commandments for a reason. There are tons of guidance scriptures all throughout the bible! There is literally ZERO excuses you can make to say "well, the bible didnt say...."

                                                                 Issue 2     

    Being lukewarm Christians. In Revelation 3:16, "so, because you are lukewarm, neither hot nor cold, i will spit you from my mouth". Lets circle back to good ol' Billy. Billy is 'hot' for the Lord. Billy prays every day, almost as much as King David. Billy helps those in need, even if it's going out of his way, he studies his bible daily. Billy can't get enough of the Lord and wants to grow more and more closer to God til the day he's called home. Then we have Nancy. Nancy finally fell off the bandwagon. She very rarely, if at all goes to church. She ignores the needy and worries only for herself. Nancy is 'cold' to God. Now, we have Cindy. Cindy is a good person. She volunteers, is almost the perfect house wife and working woman, goes to church 3 times a week, she keeps from sin as much as possible. When she slips she immediately repents. But Cindy doesn't go out of her way to pray for someone in need outside of church, or really at all. She prays, praises, and worships pretty much only at church. She reads and learns the bible, only at church. She is completely content in her current status of Chirstian-hood. Cindy, is 'lukewarm'. God doesn't want lukewarm!!! You are completely FOR God or not! God desires for EVERYONE to be HOT for him. To want to learn, to grow, to become His warriors. There's this song. It's called, Start A Fire by Unspoken. In the Chorus is says, "start a fire in my soul, fan the flames and make it grow, so there's not doubt or denying. Let it burn so brightly, that everyone around can see, that it's You, that it's You that we need. Start a Fire in me". Everytime I hear this song. I just want to be still and listen. I want that burning fire. I want to be so HOT for God, that i'm like a fresh cup of coffee. That God would have to wait for me to cool off a bit before he can handle this. Now, that might be a little too big for my britches, but that's how amped up I am. Did you know, the reason we have so few miracles now a days verses back in the bible days, is because we've become so self centered, and distant from God. Back then Miracles were normal because everyone was SO Close and SO HOT for God. If people could get their heads out of their rears we could do it again! My mom wants to speak and people be healed, I have a friend who wants to be so hot and full of God that her Shadow will heal people. I wanna heal people just by looking at them! LOL! It sounds crazy, but it's very possible if we make it a habit to grow, listen, act on his word. We also have to do one other thing. It's a very important key to walking and being like Christ.

                                                                Issue 3

     We need to learn how to pray, and sacrifice the flesh DAILY. I'm not talking about beating yourself, or taking off parts of skin. That cruel, wrong, and just gross. I'm talking about SPIRITUALLY sacrificing the flesh. Everyday we are tempted with gambling, anger, lust, jealousy, hoarding, selfishness, etc. These are all action of the flesh. We have to 'crucify' ourselves everyday, and take up our own personal crosses to be able to follow the will of God. Luke 22:42 says, "not my will be done, but yours, be done" when he was praying to His Father. In Luke 9:23, Jesus said, "if any man will come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily, and follow me". We have to be WILLING to bare our own crosses and follow Christ. I'm not gunna lie, some days will be a lot harder than others. Our Spirit is in constant battle with our own flesh. There's a Native American Tale. Which can equate to our flesh and spirit.

            An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. “A fight is going on inside me,” he said to the boy.

“It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One is evil – he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.” He continued, “The other is good – he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. The same fight is going on inside you – and inside every other person, too.”

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, “Which wolf will win?”

The old Cherokee simply replied, “The one you feed.”

In the Christian aspect, the 'evil wolf' is our flesh. It's the UN-Godly things our flesh wants. The 'good wolf' is our spirit. It wants to do God's will and follow his word. When we give in to fleshly things like lusting after another woman, or spending 'just one more dollar' on that slot machine, we're feeding the 'bad wolf'. But when we deny the flesh, when we pray for help, for strength from God, we FIGHT those urges and keep walking in GOD'S will. We sacrifice and deny ourselves giving into, and feeding, the 'good wolf', our Spirit. Don't get me wrong, there's are plenty of examples all throughout the bible also! Galatians 5:13(and on), Jeremiah 3:13-16, Hebrews 3: 12-19. Those are just a few examples in the bible if you want some light reading. But for me, at this moment, 'the tale of two wolves' is a better analogy for me to work with. I'm still very much in the learning process.

     Hopefully my wording was on point. Sometimes i'm not very good with words. I really struggled writing this segment. Hopefully it catches your attention, opens eyes, gives a different perspective, what have you. If you ever feel like you aren't strong enough to deny the flesh, to 'crucify' youself daily, try to remember this verse, "I can do ALL things through Christ, who strengthens me" Philippians 4:13. Hope you all have a blessed day.